Sunday, December 18, 2011


Picture this: U finally made it. U finally convinced ur better half to take the lead in ur household. After years and years of frustration, begging, endless discussions, manipulation, bdsm gifts, dragging her to so called fetish events, and even threats to divorce her, visit a pro-domme, or take, what we in this part of the world call, a By-side, she finally agreed to dominate u, to make u her slave, subbie, dog, pig, servant, butler, knight, of whatever had spooked through ur brain and groin, u fantasized about or dreamt of.

Yes the time has come now, for u to be only there for Her, for Her desires, Her wishes, Her needs, or any other thing which could pop up in Her mind for u to do. Even kneeling at her feet! Yes, even that! But like the strong man that u r, u had no doubts, no problems, and no hesitations, to only live for Her. Joyfully, eagerly, and totally aroused, u do the dishes, the laundry, the ironing, the vacuum cleaning, and make the bed. Running errands, kicking ass of all her undesired stalkers, licking her boyfriend’s sperm off her boots? Those things can only excite u, make u feel alive, and give u purpose to live. Every day, without exception, u r there for Her, ur Mistress, ur Goddess, ur All. There simply is nothing u wouldn’t do for Her. Ur life is entirely now in Her hands. To do with it whatever She would want to do with it. U r completely fulfilled and happy. And will be, every day, weeks, months and years to come. Till death does u part. Yes, that’s it! And if She would want u to die for Her, u wouldn’t hesitate a nanosecond, and die with a smile on ur face, and a hard-on of unheard proportions. No limits.

So She leashes u, and let u lick Her feet while watching the News. She spanks u with Her hairbrush, She gags u with Her soiled panties, and teaches u how to spoil Her girlfriends. And when u fail? Corner time for u boy! Writing thousands of lines like………..”I will always obey my Mistress, because I’m her devoted slave, and She is my Goddess”. And much much more. Just to make u happy.

And what u love most of ur Goddess, is that She’s so creative and adventurous, constantly finding new ways to please u even more. For instance, she bought u the latest chastity device, and a steel collar snugly hidden under that other collar when going to work. She also makes u wear pink panties, after having thrown all ur manly underwear into the dumpster.

Life couldn’t be better.

But actually she hates all this. She never felt like a domina. She never wouldn’t have wanted to be awakened to one either. She’s just playing along with ur morbid desires, cos she loves u, and wants to give to u what u said u needed so much.

But u moron became convinced She had changed for real. That up till now She just was hiding the REAL She, that woman driven by that natural dominant streak in Her, oppressed as it was by that damned patriarchal society for ages, brainwashed and indoctrinated by her sleazy teachers, her lousy parents, her soapy religion, and that overall damaging credo: “Women should follow their husbands”(or whatever creepy male specimen they were connected to). But u took care of that eh? U took advantage of that credo, supported as u felt by what u found on the Internet, in blogs of ur brethren in distress, the lectures of seasoned bdsm gurus, and last but not least, by the encouraging words of those incredibly dominant females already blossoming in the lifestyle, a.k.a. Mommy_Dommes.

As time got by, and both of u grew more and more into a nurturing, compassionate, and ultra strict FLR, something changed for real. She wanted more! She wanted to know if u really would live up to what ur mouth was full of. She wanted u to prove urself. She wanted to find out if it was only She who was playing a role, and that u were indeed the Real Thing, Her slave, Her property, Her “Do as YOU please with me my Goddess”. So She kicked the Mommy-Domme image off Her pedestal, and trampled Her to pieces! All that was left was a woman who wanted the naked Truth!
So, after having u put into some mild restraints, She took u to that place of rest, and ordered u:

Ur world fell apart. In disbelief u tried to look up to ur Goddess, ur ALL. Was this the same woman u only existed for? Was this the woman u gave urself to, as a precious gift? Was this the same woman u lured into that silly exchange of power?

Apparently not, as, pressing her high heel with increasing force onto ur shivering body, she mercilessly insisted:

U looked into the toilet bowl. U saw the remnants and stains of yesterday’s stool, and suddenly remembered u didn’t clean it properly. Something snapped in u. Something left u. First u didn’t realize what it was, as it never had been there in the first place. But then u knew. U were not a slave. U simply were a lousy player. A moron. One of those who only can act AS IF they were into femdom, but actually r seeking a silly woman who’s stupid enough to fall for their act, and start dominating them according to their own wishes and desires, while they don’t give a damn if she’s in it herself or not.

And then it happened! Something u vowed would never happen. No, not to u! But now it did. Disgusted with her, urself and what was in the pot, u resisted and shouted:

She however, being a woman in her own right, adapted and adjusted to an, although fake, femdom situation for a considerable amount of time now, having been encouraged by u to take intensive training classes to physically overpower u when necessary, accustomed to be flawlessly obeyed by u, and full of it, forced u to lay urself down on the floor, hissing:

Then ur fate was sealed. She dismissed u, and left u, to find a real vanilla man.

The story above was triggered by a discussion a few weeks ago about toilet cleaning, in one of those countless soft-core FLR blogs, populated by men and women like the ones from the tale u just read, and one that kept itself busy for a while with the question what to do when a sub says “no”.

Hygiene was seen as a valid reason for refusing to lick the toilet bowl clean.

Here r a few lines/excuses that were used to legally say “no” to a femdom (or one who thinks she is), and still staying convinced that one truly is a slave or sub (i still can’t get used using the term sub without getting the urge to mock and ridicule people using same). And mind u, unedited.
I agree with you re the toilet bowl being a hard limit - there is Femdom and then there is the disgusting that brings with it health issues. I really cannot imagine any Femdom ever wishing to kiss, or be kissed by, a slave who has been ordered to sip from a toilet bowl. YUCK!!!
Even the best toilet bowl cleaners on the market today will not kill all germs, bacteria and viruses. Fecal matter is a very contagious way to spread these. How do you think e coli get so widespread? Hand sanitizers are all over the place today. The problem is that they only kill germs (most of them anyway). Illnesses are caused by viruses, hand sanitizers are useless against them.
Alarmed by all these risks and dangers i jumped in saying:

Geeeez Anon, really? That dirty, risky and dangerous eh? And so filthy too! I think i'll never visit and use a toilet again, and even when only having passed one, i'll thoroughly wash my hands. Maybe take a shower too.
As a reply i got:


Why do you think most women do not sit on toilet seats in bathrooms? They raise themselves up a little to pee, because of contagious germs. The dirtest item in a bathroom-----the flush handle. Most women also use their feet for that. I guess that makes it even more dirty.

Since I wear a chastity device I also must sit down to pee. Either I use a lot of toilet paper to cover the seat, or I also squat a little over the seat. Some urine gets on the seat, I do wipe it up. More reason why toilets are dirty.
And i went:

Come on Anon! Do i really have to repeat myself? I already vowed never to use a toilet again! Yuck!

".....most women do not sit on toilet seats...."? How do u know? R u a peeping tom perhaps? Is that why u r cruising these neighborhoods incognito?

Not surprisingly, his answer never came.

Curious as i am, and having objectivity high on my wish list, i did some research. And u know what? It’s true. There r a lot of dangerous germs lurking in the restrooms of this world, eagerly waiting to infect our slaves with the most ugly diseases, and to make them stray from their holy quest to please their Goddesses. But…… appears there r worse things than that. Especially when compared to those (hopefully) clean bathrooms taken care of by these men working their asses off in a FLR!

Lemme show u a few those:
Vacuum cleaners contain fecal bacteria, including 13 percent with E-coli. And we all know that vacuum cleaning belongs to the daily chores of males in a FLR.

Grocery carts r contaminated with fecal bacteria, even more than the average public bathroom has. How about that eh? Think about that slaves, the next time u secretly take a bite from an apple held in ur hand infested by ur cart handle!
Ur currency is carrying loads of E-coli and MRSA. Huh? Yes slave it does!

The place u take ur Mistress to, to please her even more with exotic dishes. If it’s a popular one, the menu there can pass u the germs of hundreds of people. Awww, how awfull. Oh, and don’t u dare to offer her a drink with a lemon wedge attached to it. Full of E-coli and other fecal bacteria.

Vinyl shower curtains r breeding grounds for pathogens. Zillions of them. And they multiply even faster when u r taking a shower, or giving ur Owner a well deserved wet body massage.

Contact-lens cases r crawling with germs that can even lead to blindness. Just imagine, never able to see the poop of ur Mistress. Unthinkable!

As the strong man that u must be to be able to kneel at Her feet, u should be extra careful using gym equipment, and pay special attention to ur weight-lifting gloves (u do weight lifting no?), infested as they r with MRSA bacteria. Yes Sir, occasionally wiping ur nose or mouth, and bang……… the little rascals r in, damaging ur health considerably.

And concluding this short list of a much longer one, is ur sexy flight attendant. Yes, that lovely creature, and also her ugly colleague of the male gender, r walking germ factories. U can catch shit from both of them a 100x more than when safely staying on the ground. Or doesn’t ur Goddess take u on vacation to her Tahiti cabin, a biz trip to Dubai, and instead leaves u all alone behind, chained to the floor in the kitchen to scrub the tiles?

In conclusion: Coming up with this hygiene crap when ordered to lick clean the toilet bowl, drink ur Mistress morning piss, or the swallow her feces, is yet another lame excuse for not being exposed as a wannabe, a non-slave, a liar, a coward, and a creepy TFTB!

So from now on it will only be like this!

Besides, don’t let urself get fooled by all those silly women and soft-core men who r constantly trying to convince u of how disgusting and appalling golden showers and scat r. And not only by telling u horror stories about those silly hygiene issues, but mostly cos they probably never had the pleasure to experience either of them, and never met a woman who was in it. It’s true that many men don’t have the guts and stomach for it, but take it from a highly experienced one (that would be moi eh?) the reality is this:

And just to help all the eager ones with soft limits to get over the threshold and the need to start scratching the toilet b4 putting their rookie tongue to it, watch this;

Check that part of YT out. Many more over there. Even some where the cat is drinking from the toilet bowl. How about that eh? Take her/him as an example. Learn, practice, and make a habit out of it, dammit!

When i uploaded that video to that FLR site i mentioned above, i also wrote as an encouragement to get some zest back into the hearts of its overly serious and scared participants:
Geeez, come to think of it, there r no risk takers, no adventurers, and no real men left in VFL (Vanilla Femdom Land). All signed up for only soft ssc. All want to be leashed, and be a dog. But to drink from the toilet? To clean it with their tongue? To swallow the delicious scat cooked up in the sacred bowels of their Goddess? Oh no! No,no,no, no, no!!! Definitely NOT! Period! Not even when ordered to by their sublime Owner! She should be ashamed of herself to ask from her property to do such filthy stuff. She must be a selfish bitch just for having the very thought of it. Yeah, a tyrannical, evil, selfish BITCH. That’s what she is! No respect at all for her hubby. No caring either. No responsibility whatsoever. And that should be a called a relationship? A nurturing one?

And to think these males claim to only live for HER, no matter what. LIARS! U dogs should learn from the cats, and start acting like a MAN, ruthlessly demanding from ur Mistress, NEVER to use the toilet again. From now on, till death does u part, U will be her toilet, eagerly drinking her piss and eating her scat straight from her divine source! And also do all the cleaning after. And not with the toilet brush, u hear!
Still hesitant to follow ur dream? Well then, especially for u we developed this:

And now we’re on the topic, ever heard of the Cybelian community? No? Come on. Really? Never heard of that place where women every day piss on and into the mouth of their men? It’s called urine therapy. Not that i would want to belong to that group, but geeeez, what actually DO u know about femdom? Seems u only know about that tiny little corner of it, hidden in the suburbs of d/s land, where narrow-minded bdsm scholars and their proudly baptized acolytes r educating u about a world which is hardly different from that frustrating vanilla world u wanted to escape, but only thought u had left, cos these morons convinced u to believe u had done so by embracing the concept of FLR and other non-femdom movements. Wake up man, and enjoy the real thing. Be a god, drinking nectar and consuming ambrosia, instead of licking off cum left by another man on the pussy of the woman who never wanted to be a domina.
If u r a real slave, and not some doormat to be degraded, humiliated, and dehumanized, then come over, and join the world of feminine femdom. The world were u belong, and once there, never will be able to leave.

As for the rest of u losers? Enjoy the video, and stay were u r. Psaw!


  1. Hehehe

    I sit on the toilet to pee, unless it's public but then again. I'm known to piss in the bushes. I don't use leaves though, always carry tissues.

  2. Sigh! At least one wise one among the ones who were disturbed and disgusted by "NO!" lol.

    And to all those who still feel sick by even the thought of golden showers and things like that, let me ask u this: For what reason do most people cover their genital area when caught naked?

  3. Too disgusted to type (publicly or directly to you) but too damn curious so they'll come here for a look, in the safety of their home. The home made of glass.

  4. Oh, lets not mention the glass tables... Lol

  5. Publicly? Well let's wait and see. It's still fresh, and maybe some daredevil will still show up.(Let's hope he/she washes his/her hands thoroughly after having hammered away on their kb eh? Cos i tell u girl, them kb's of today carry more E-Coli than a toilet seat)

    Directly to me? Oh yes, lol. That happens a lot.

    Curious? For sure they r. Lurking is what most people do. It's only a matter of time there will be nominations for "Lurker of the Year"

  6. Once a dermatologist told me that pressing ur open hand on a glass table after a hot and juicy party night, could cause u to develop a nasty melanoma. Only the thought of what could happen if some crazy guy would insist on licking clean such table makes me shiver in horror.

  7. There's a woman who lives locally. She makes a living working with tables. £20 plus dinner. She's in demand... The lurkers might be interested.

  8. Hmmmm, but maybe the woman in question not. U know them lurkers eh? No tipping ever!

  9. 1) would you like if foreigners came to live in you country? "Of course not, they would be most welcome to live here".

    2) would you like if foreigners came to live in you city? "Of course not, they would be most welcome to live here".

    3) would you like if foreigners came to live in your street? "Of course not, they would be most welcome to live here".

    4) would you like if foreigners would rape your son or daughter? "Over my dead body! Neither a foreigner nor anybody else."

    Did you get it Ayesha? Did you get the difference?


  10. uuuups... "mind" instead of "like"!


  11. @ David. It's exactly this way of taking things out of context that i truly HATE. U come up with a comment here which, maybe, only could make sense to other readers of this blog, if they were familiar with exactly THAT, the context to which ur comment is referring to! Since it is based on a private conversation between the 2 of us (which btw was ur choice and not mine), this was impossible.

    As for # 4 of ur list: It’s a disgrace to include it in this list, as it has no relation whatsoever with the subject of MY list, the list i sent u privately, and which u (partly) copied here to prove something which has absolutely nothing to do with what i tried to make u understand via mine.

    It also shows that u don't know much of survey construction.

    So David, i got u for sure, and clearly see the differences between us now better than ever. As for u? U didn't get it at all. Not me, not the blog, and not the message of the survey example i sent u as a reply to all the "questions" u asked me privately.

    I could have known tho, cos a person who believes that golden showers and scat r "the same thing" (ur words, remember?) like breaking a person’s arms and legs (ur example remember?), is still convinced that d/s in general, and femdom in particular, r actually only different expressions of, and directly connected to, appalling vanilla activities. That u dared, in ur follow up private email to me, to bring up nazism as a next support of ur views on the topic of my blog, i consider, certainly when sent to a person who wrote repeatedly and extensively about that filth, simply a major insult.

    Like anybody else, u r allowed to disagree with me about anything, to curse me, ridicule and mock me, to call me names, and accuse me of whatever u want to accuse me of. Unlike others, i don’t fear that. Unlike others i don’t depend on, nor do i need the support of likeminded people. U go ahead and say whatever u have to say. But don’t do it the half way, partly private, partly publicly. So i repeat what i already said to u in private: "In the future David, better post ur concerns and disgusts straight to my blog, for all to see." Adding now to it: From the beginning!

    Btw, if u r so concerned about health issues David, u’d better stay away from femdom in general, and especially from me. Lilith forbid u could, for instance, catch a nasty infection the moment ur delicate skin would be mercilessly ripped open by a careless domina wielding a not sterilized whip. But just in case eh? Make sure to always carry a good supply of strong antibiotics on u.

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  13. The above comment is a commercial, and could be labeled as spam. This time i'll let if pass, and won't delete it. Why? Beats me. Maybe it's the sweet talking? But than again, i don't like that kind of talk. So, i don't know. Does it matter? Nah, cors not.

  14. Remember David? The one i asked to post straight to my blog instead of sending me private messages? Well, he sent me a lengthy other one in private telling me...."and I won't post anything in the blog." Guess that says all.


  15. Preamble : I am one of those who could dream of licking your feces and drinking your urine Ayesha, and I'm not here to provoke. I give here my point of view because you love slaves who are ambitious and stimulating.

    How exquisite and inspiring note you wrote here… many of us will feel cornered on the ropes, as on the ring in a boxing match, stuck on the ropes, unable to dodge… you know, when we become unable to escape the strokes…!

    I love your cruel and sophisticated tales, the story of the naked truth…

    And as I feel now naked, after having heard the truth by you, I will let you come in my thoughts…

    What you say looks like the search of the proof of slavery by the toilet... ( or by the faeces... )

    And in my respectful opinion, there may be at least two very different way of looking at it…

    And the difference lies in the consciousness (of risk) of the slave…

    Imagine one unconscious who dreams to become just a toilet slave, who eats faeces of all the dominas ( or fake ) he meets around the corner… it is then more in a situation of self-destruction than in a relationship of slavery…

    Imagine now, one really aware of what means to eat and lick the faeces of “his” mistress…

    Its not at all the same thing… It is quite different in terms of cultural, symbolic and even biological…

    If the slave is really owned as a property by his mistress, things change significantly…

    For instance if you really own a slave, and do not share it, the combination between your body and your slave, will probably become biologically homogeneous as if they were only one and the risk is minimized to the extreme... ( even in a toilet licking question as your toilet are certainly cleaner than many kebabs and burgers… ), if you eat the same thing, live in the same environment, frequent the same people, after a while we may assume that your bacterial balance should be more or less the same ...

    ( although the amount of non-lethal e-coli naturally present in the gut of the Mistress passing into the gut of the slave can issue to a problematic concentration in the intestine of the slave... don’t you have specialist among your slaves which could clarify the situation, Ayesha? I hate that kind of taboo… that everyone is afraid to speak, the medical first… )

    But here there is then a question, in this kind of property-symbiosis relationship between the mistress and the slave,
    What evidence then provides this slave, since you give him what he always wanted? The “pain and the gain” or rather “a minimum risk and the gain”, as actually eating feces and drinking urine from his mistress can also be seen as an act of extreme intimacy, an honor ... ?

    "His dream was to be truly forced to do so ..." then where is its surpassing ? Where is the proof that it is truly your slave and not just trying to fulfill his fantasy ?

    And since the question is related: Why do you think a real domina wants his slave to eat its substances ? Just as a matter of evidence of his slavery or for other reasons? As an act of appropriation of the body of the slave ?

    With my deepest respect…


    P.S. Again and again, your blog is really splendid… delightful… The best one…

    btw, as you know that some nuances escape me sometimes in English, do you like your own slaves eating your substances or not?

  16. As a matter of fact i don't give a shit if a slave wants to eat my shit or not. Neither do i look for proof if he/she is a real slave or not. As i explained this already several times on this site, and elsewhere, i know this from the moment i laid eyes on her/him.

    There’s not one action of which i would insist that it should belong to the repertoire or of a dominant woman. Same counts for her wardrobe. I do think tho, that she should refrain from doing things she has no passion for, and should never go soft on that under any circumstances. No excuses, but dominating any impulse to stray from what makes u the woman that u r!

    I certainly don’t need any lectures about risks and dangers, as, while most of u people were living ur sheltered lives, i moved around in areas of which most of u only (if at all) "know" of from watching the news or reading ur favorite paper.

    I'm quite familiar with all the risks that can come with drinking piss and/or eating scat. Like i am, for instance, when entering an ER, jumping out of an aircraft, sharing blood with a soul-slave, racing a highway 200m/h, or getting caught when trespassing enemy territory. Doesn’t mean these risks and dangers would hold me back when in to mood to go for it.

    The main purpose of this particular blog, was to mock all those who claim/want to be totally owned, ready for and vowing to do anything for their owner, but bail out, using a shitload of lame but apparantly socially acceptable excuses, as soon as they r called to a the task by her which doesn’t fit into their pitiful idea of femdom . That some/most of the commentators (public and private ones) didn’t pick this up, is only demonstrating how sad the situation actually is: Not standing for what u say u stand for, and still keep on bragging to be the real thing, is the norm. That this is supported and defended by self-proclaimed freethinkers, sex gurus, and dominant women, by promoting and exaggerating there is no "one true way" and that "anything" can be labeled femdom, makes this even worse.

    To seriously discuss how to handle a situation when a so called slave says "no" and refuses a given order, i find totally ridiculous, and yet another reason to reinforce my belief that people who engage in this, r just players acting in the realm of recreational/vanilla femdom. Again, nothing wrong with that. Enjoy ur confusion, discuss things like that, find the right solution for ur situation, but don’t advocate that anything goes as long as u and ur "devoted slave" r in agreement. It only will make the concept of femdom an even bigger farce than it already became.

  17. "i know ( if he/she is a real slave or not )from the moment i laid eyes on her/him"

    It's very beautiful and very pure... it's a different level...


  18. I suppose people don't want anything to threaten their illusion of complete slavery and if something comes up that does, if they can plug in a "good reason" for not doing it, they can get back to that illusion. In any relationship, there is a gap between the reality and the illusion. No matter how close you get to another person there is still a separateness there, but some people don't want to face that, so they say they're "perfect for each other" or "complete each other." Same thing with a femdom relationship. No one can own another person, but people like to live with the illusion of that degree of ownership. I don't think they're posturing, they're just trying to maintain that illusion.

    I'm not sure why. In my writing, I always give my male characters limits and freedom. They're never "slaves," they're constantly choosing and struggling to obey the orders of the women in their lives. In the end, they always do, but if they "had to" it wouldn't be as much fun. But that's just me. I know there are authors who work really hard to depict actual slavery in their fiction.

  19. "No one can own another person...."? Is that so? Do u KNOW this for a fact, or is this based on some kind of philosophy or definition of ownership?

    "slaves";"....actual slavery..."? Like so many, it seems to me u r still linking this to vanilla slavery. In feminine femdom a slave is far from that appalling situation, and is freer than a so called free vanilla man. But then to define freedom eh? Hmmm, tricky tricky. Maybe it would be worth to try and, for a change, NOT to look at it and/or define it the "traditional" way? A good start would be to make a distinction between "free of" and "free from".

  20. I'm just giving my thoughts, but I think there are limitations to the idea of being a "complete" slave. Complete control over someone's actions might be possible but their thoughts can't be controlled completely. Which doesn't meant an owner/slave relationship can't be enormously rewarding for two people, but there are limitations. Same way couples like to say they complete each other, as if any gap between loneliness and completeness has been erased. I think they really believe that, but then they have moments of loneliness and feel like there's a problem with their relationship. People might be happier if they admitted to those inherent limitations and strived to become as close as possible but not feel like they have to reach some end point of absolute completeness.

    I think the idea of slavery is similar. These men you're talking about in this blog probably don't want to admit to any limitations in the slave relationship, so they fall back on what they feel they can argue are legitimate health concerns to avoid certain activities. I think they'd probably be happier and feel more fulfilled if they admitted to those limitations. And instead of saying, "I do anything my mistress says. I'm her slave!" They admitted that while they liked the idea of being her slave and while they do strive to follow her lead in all things, there are things they would refuse to do, or things they might refuse to do even if they haven't come up yet.

    I just started reading your blog, so I'm not completely sure what your ideas are on feminine femdom. I'm quite interested, though.

  21. "...those inherent limitations and strived to become as close as possible...." I like that. More than once i brought up the analogy/metaphor of the hyperbola when trying to explain/describe feminine femdom: Two separate entities and yet one Gestalt, creating that way the possibility for these entities to unite in what i've called the d/s singularity. If u keep on reading this blog i'm sure u'll find more about this.

    U also will detect that in feminine femdom, limitations and control r not considered main issues or dwelling in the centre of interest of its practitioners. Neither r humiliation, punishment, and all the other mainstream/vanilla femdom activities, which we find rather silly and thus r kept far away from our d/s dynamics and life. Doesn’t mean that if i want a man or woman to do something he/she will be allowed to say "no". But they always can try, and r even encouraged to challenge/seduce me to go along with what they want or not want.

    "I do anything my mistress says. I'm her slave!" Oh those? Time to show them the way to a very dirty toilet (grin).