Ayesha's Saudade: November 2012

The woman in the picture above? Nah, i know her pretty well, and i can assure u, she’s in perfectly good health and excellent shape. Just look at her! Isn’t she all one could ever wish for in a woman? Ok, ok, she has a few nasty flaws as well, and some may consider her a bit provocative, while some would even accuse her of being a flaming bitch, a mad woman, a no good destroyer of vanilla values, and therefore in the end inevitably will come to the conclusion that she must be sick. But…um….. that’s only cos these people belong to a class i like to refer to as mental dwarfs. So no, she’s not sick. Just not normal.

What about the one on the horse then? Maybe she caught a cold or something? I mean, riding a horse naked could cause that eh? Again, no, nothing of the sort. And the horse is fine too. I mean this horse, cos there r many horses which r not, due to the way some people treat them. And that’s what this particular blog is about: People who get (sexual) pleasure from abusing animals, i.e. horses, a.k.a. zoosadism.

A Triptych

Part One........Horror & Shame

Animal cruelty is all around us. Just think of what’s going on for instance in circuses, laboratories, slaughterhouses, some religious rituals, movie making, and fishing (especially when hunting for shark fins). And don’t forget these so called sports, i.e. dog fighting, cock-fights, and bullfighting. I hate those, can’t stand them, and often mock, ridicule, and challenge people who practice/admire same.

Here’s an example, a quote from what i wrote on my site in feb2011: Years ago a man invited me to a bullfight in Puerto Vallarta. When i cheered for the bull the moment he drove his horns into the belly of the coward ‘fighting’ him, my companion feared for my life (and his i guess), and hastily tried to calm the crowd where we were seated, nervously explaining to them that i was just an ignorant Gringa, lol. Me, a Gringa, can u imagine, hahaha.

Recently i was kicked out of a yahoo group. Yep, stuff like that happens to me a lot (sigh, sob).

The owner of this particular group, a slave to his spouse whose dominant instincts he claims to have awakened and to whom he taught how to handle a bullwhip so she could punish him for whatever what, had more than enough of me criticizing him and his affiliates regarding ‘hard horseback riding’. B4 it came to that, he praised me for my comments, telling me also i was “a natural born female supremacist” (yes, his words). Hahahaha, me a female supremacist? That poor guy probably never took some time off to read my take on that silliness. Or maybe he did, and instantly went into denial?

Btw, what about u eh? U too believe that females r supreme and superior to males? U do? Oh noooooo, pulleeeezzzz, repent, adjust, change, convert, and stop that nonsense! What? U can’t u say? U r a hard believer u say? A rock without any doubt about our superiority? A fiery defender and relentless protector of Womyn’s Rights, unshakable in ur sacred quest? U too belong to the ones living in err, dedicating ur life to female supremacy, and will do anything to be an apostle of its rotten religion? Well….um….ur rotten religion eh, as there r not so many women subscribing to ur phantom church. Anyway, high time for u to read “Forget it” (again)!

Damn, now where was i? Oh yes, i was telling u about the one who couldn’t bear with me anymore. And the ones following in his wake were very happy too once i became invisible in his (their) world. Cos that’s what he was defending: A world were horses r seen as a kind of commodity, a thing to be used, a living being to be cruelly hurt, pester, tortured, and abused, only existing to satisfy the lower instincts of a bunch of indifferent people who r playing down their lame attitudes and acts toward those animals by trying to convince themselves and others that what they r doing is beautiful, claiming to have the right to make the life of a horse as miserable as possible, only focusing on themselves and their deep seated sad drives. What a world. Yuck! Sick!

As a matter of fact, i consider these animal ‘games’ worse than ‘nazi-play’, and u know what i think about the latter. Oh u don’t? Then go here, and learn.

It all began after i had posted this: Ah that infamous hard riding, a.k.a. challenging riding or extreme riding. Here it is i who is wondering now how it is possible that a femdom could engage in this or encourage same. How is it possible that a woman could participate in the abuse and the deliverance of pain to an animal, i.e. a horse or a donkey, a creature absolutely not craving activities in the realm of d/s or s/m like some humans do. It’s disgusting!

I love horses and own several of them. I love the feeling to ride on their powerful backs, to speed along beaches, or softly talk to them during a relaxed ride in the forests. I was a kid the first time my father let me ride a pony. Since then horses were my trusted friends, and i will never lay a whip on them. And spurs? To hell with them!

Among other things, the head-goddess in that group replied: “……..please, do not judge nor post negative msgs about hard riding, since Riding Cult is one of most beautiful things we enjoy. So please respect our tastes and preferences.”

Turn a blind eye? Respect something i can only hold in contempt? Leaving something untold simply cos these people want to be among themselves, not to be disturbed by soft creatures like myself, or, as the afore mentioned slave so colorfully and eloquently expressed, not having to deal with ‘a pain in the ass’?

Well, that’s not me. So i wrote back: Look sister, i think u r one of a few commercially oriented women in Cyberspace who know how to wear boots and leather in a feminine way and to a certain extent is skilled in the art of whipping. I could befriend u for that, and maybe even more. But u lose me when it comes to hard riding for reasons i explained already. And i will speak my mind whenever and where ever i feel like it. No matter the consequences! Rest assured tho i won’t bother u and ur clients here anymore with my insights and actions about same. Well maybe. No promises! It had to be said tho, and i did. Chances r i will dedicate some words on hr on my own site. But, unlike u, i won’t ask u to refrain from commenting (no matter its content) after publication of same, should u have the urge to do so.

And, like i said, that did it, that was too much for Sir Slave. **Exit Ayesha**

Since i believe that group was created mainly to stimulate the sale of their videos focused on vanilla femdom and hard riding, i’m taking their r/l involvement with pestering and hurting horses (and donkeys) with a grain of salt. To boost the sale of their products somewhat more, i’m also under the impression that some of the postings over there, allegedly written by different male and females, actually come from the same person. But that’s just me. Maybe i’m wrong. Who cares? Not i. People r known for utilizing the strangest marketing techniques to get their products off the shelves. Pleasing customers is of paramount importance. Feeding their audience via the group with what they r after, offering them a platform to discuss what’s eating their souls, and to spice things up with pictures and an occasional clip, is possibly a great way to make some cash. And one certainly doesn’t need ‘pain in the asses’ like me to spoil all that eh?

The Internet is infested with groups and sites like that, although a good part of them r not commercially operated, and exist only as some kind of lightning-conductor for dealing with personal frustration and to channel lowly brain activity to the private parts of the creator of the group and its membership. Most members do not participate in the discussion and never share anything. They just lurk, and hope that others will provide them with the badly needed stimulants. Cheap as they usually r, many also try to illegally lay their hands on commercially offered products. Then jerk off when watching those.

But who r these people really? What does the audience look like? Who gets off on watching animals suffer? Knowing the scene a bit, i think it’s safe to say they come from all walks of life. They can be ceo’s, garbage collectors, high ranking military personnel, drug traffickers, sweet moms (oh yes they too), pastors, vets, u name it. The intensity of the drive varies enormously too. Some people just need a little bit, others can only get relief from watching the most despicable atrocities, or participating in them. It’s not unlikely that these people r suffering from some serious psychological problems.

Within the hard riding area, many fans crave it when a horse’s tail is tied by a rope to a fence or a tree, and then is given the spurs as hard as possible, preferable not the English type but the ones with razor sharp rowels! The poor animal can go nowhere, but frantically tries to move forward in despair and agony, however to no avail. And they love to see the animal bleed, cheering it to suffer as long as possible. Some use barbed wire as a mouth piece, others r sexually turned on by breaking their horse’s teeth, and the ones that r getting hard from seeing animal blood on the boots of a dame coming back from a cruel ride, r countless. Sick!

To be clear, although i’m a saint, i eat meat (well not that much), i’m wearing leather most of the time (my wardrobe is extensive), and i’m not an animal rights activist. But……… i only devour eggs from free roaming egg-laying hens, and strongly support animal welfare. In fact, i find the whole animal issue confusing and struggle a bit with Richard Ryder’s concept of speciesism.

Be that as it may, to participate in activities where horses intentionally and deliberately r harmed, i reject to the fullest, and consider these activities mega objectionable. It’s sick and shameful!

Part Two........An Alternative

U know? It’s horrible to know that there r people who r linking this shit to femdom. Even in vanilla femdom circles it should be cursed and condemned! In contrast with what many seem to be convinced of and/or r marketing, female domination has nothing to do with abusing humans, animals in general, or horses in particular. People who r attracted to hurting animals r simply vanilla sadists, absolutely not connected to the world of d/s. A woman can strut around in leather and boots, wielding an exquisite whip, and riding a formidable horse, without being a dominant female. But she can easily be a vanilla sadist, or faking to be one, only to please a deranged man or to plunder his wallet. In fact, femdom and vanilla sadism r alien and antagonistic to each other! Femdom is the total enemy of vanilla sadism!

So, for all those in need of abuse and cruelty, why not cross over and keep all that between humans? There’s pet-play u know? It’s all over the mainstream/vanilla/recreational/commercial d/s place. Many women r already pleasing their men by riding their robust backs and/or massive shoulders (well, for some that’s fragile backs and/or sagging shoulders) during hot times outdoors, in secret cardboard dungeons in the attic or basement at home, during festive encounters with likeminded people in fetish clubs, or in high priced establishments of the pro-domme world.

It’s huge people. There’s some serious stuff going on in that area. No animals needed for that!

And u know what? No limits whatsoever. I mean agreed upon stuff of cors. Ssc no matter what. Complete consent or nothing. Free from stupid and unwilling animals which eventually could trample ur ass to pulp. Truly an encounter between a demanding and instructed dominatrix riding her hoof clad human horsie through the neatly vacuumed bedroom stall, proud tail protruding from his ass. And don’t forget the spurs eh? Really sharp ones of cors. Dig in ladies. No mercy!

Now wouldn’t that be something? Of cors it would. So what r u waiting for? Go for it already! Go abuse and hurt that pathetic human horse of u to the fullest! He deserves it! Make him bleed!

And once the initial training sessions r over, once that mindless human animal finally learned his place between ur incredibly sexy legs and out of this world derrière (never mind advanced cellulitis), it‘s time to take it to the next level, to go out into the world, and challenge ur competitors, lame couples who dare to rival ur unique female supremacy and inferior male companion. Yeah, that’s the life u all have been dreaming of! So what r u waiting for? Go for it already! Go get those slimy bastards!

Ok, feet on the ground again. Back to reality. Back to how women really feel about all this, what really is going on when they r trying to keep their balance while riding on their man into the sunset. Back in 2010 i wrote a piece about pet-play. It’s titled “Woof”. Regarding horses i posted: So, r there women who really enjoy riding on the back or the shoulders of a male? A male dressed up like a pony, with a tail sticking out of his butt? Women who dream about that, who get aroused when hopping around in the bedroom, wielding their riding crops? I don’t remember i ever got horny from that. But i sure felt stupid. I asked many women what their experiences were, and all of them disclosed to me, they found it rather inconvenient, ridiculous, if not stressful!

And that’s how it is folks. Not sick. Only stupid. But highly preferable to harassing real horses! So go ahead, play on, and leave them real horses alone!

Part Three……..How it should be

Here r two videos from a man who’s the opposite of the creeps and i mentioned in Part One. A man who knows how to relate to his horses, who tries to understand them, instead of making their lives miserable and full of discomfort and suffering. A human being i want to salute, and respect indeed. Watch, enjoy, and learn.