This week (sunset friday till sundown saturday) we (i mean us Jewish people) celebrate יום הכיפורים (Yom Kippur). It’s the day of atonement, of repentance, of reconciliation, of forgiving and seeking forgiveness, of cleansing, and of other beautiful things.
It’s the one Jewish holiday which practically all Jews, wherever they make their home on this planet, observe, even when they’re not really considering themselves religious.
Religion is certainly not for me. From what i read about it, and saw for myself, it does more bad than good. Still Yom Kippur has meaning for me. It reminds me of where my roots r, of the rough and sweet times i spent with one of my greatest loves in that small strip of the land of my ancestors surrounded by enemies, of the atrocities done to my people from ancient times on up till now, of the incredible resiliency of most of my people, keeping their humanity under the worst possible conditions, their lust for life, their creativity, their inventiveness, and their unequalled ability to really see the three sides of a coin. They endured the most horrible things, and still were able to turn a desert into a lush garden.
Unlike others tho, i will not forgive nor seek forgiveness for my wrongdoings. I will not allow any cleansing, nor do i need one. Atonement, repentance, and reconciliation may be of value and a purpose to others, but not to me. Not cos i couldn’t subscribe to their beauty per se, but, apart from my personal experiences, cos of what happened at places like Babi Yar, where, on the eve of Yom Kippur, more than 33000 Jews were slaughtered by the Germans and their filthy collaborators, or the Yom Kippur War of 1973 when, on the most holy day of the Jews, some Arab nations deemed it appropriate to attack Israel.
Someone once urged me, instead of seeking revenge, instead of embracing "an eye for an eye" philosophy and course of action, to put the past and my hate behind me, and try to be the bigger person. But i don’t want to be that person. I even would hate to be one. I don’t want to forget the past. I don’t want to sooth the pain. I don’t want to play down any horrific event just cos it happened a long time ago. I don’t want to belong to those who tell me that time heals all. I want the past in general, and my past in particular, to stay with me, to be one with me, to keep me on the alert, to not fall asleep and run over, when the human cockroaches of this world r marching again. And i don’t want to be absolved from my wrongdoings either. Some time ago i dedicated a blog to this "being the bigger person". If interested, go here.
I know my views, attitude and actions on this, will be inacceptable for some if not most, and will make me an outcast. Nothing new here. I'm used to that. So be it. Still i will try to keep following in the footsteps of the Masada people, and the Ones that make us remember Mila 18, of which one of their greatest son’s actions on the Golan in 1973 still makes me feel proud and confident, that the will to resist evil, to not allow defeat, and the perseverance of individuals, minorities, and oppressed people, can make a difference, can create a future, can even dictate the future, and can be the foundation on which a better world can be build. Alas we aren’t operating on a larger scale like that yet. Not yet, not yet.
I wanted to end this blog with a song titled Yoryim ouBo’hyim, a song belonging to the kind that pierces to the very marrow, which really has invaded my soul, and will stay there forever. Alas, embedding was disabled. So if u want to listen to it, click here. And in case u can’t understand the language, simply click “show more”, and u’ll find an English translation. L'Chaim!
# 1 There was this Polish couple, Pawel and Ola, deeply in love with each other, and deeply anti-semitic. So they joined a neo-nazi group in Warszawa (hey Americans, that's the capital of Poland, once liberated from Hitler and his gang, by some of ur granddads, eh?), driven as they were to show the Jews, what it meant to be on the wrong side of the glorious white power movement.
To Ola and Pawel, Jews were the ultimate filth, ever seen on the face of the Earth.
Of cors they taught their innocent and lovely kids, that the Jews were their biggest enemy, and that fascism and nazism were here as the only and holy weapons with which these inferior beings could be slaughtered and finally erased from their planet. That should be their life quest, aka their only goal in life. So they urged them to do as their parents, to go out on the streets, find those damned Jews, those stinking lowlifes, who were the cause of all misery and abuse in Gods garden, to seek their blood, and to wage war against them. Down with them. Heil Hitler. (Horst Wessel Song thundering in the background now, to cheer things up eh?)
Then, one day, they found out, that their roots were Jewish.
Nowadays they r helping the rabbi in an orthodox local synagogue, hahahaha!
Oh, and this is no fiction, but a true story!
# 2 A recent Dutch study tried to find out what males and females enjoy doing the most during the day, evening, and night. Kind of a top ten of favorite activities so to speak. Not surprisingly sex was the absolute # 1 for males. Not that they actually having it all the time, but they constantly talk about it, fantasize about it, brag about it, and quarrel about it with their spouse, girlfriend, partner, mistress, the occasional whore, and their therapist. But with women the picture turned out to be quite different. They had having a good meal on top of their list, followed by hanging out with their female friends, non-trivial conversations, and reading a good book. Furthermore it was revealed that women rather go shopping, than to cuddle up between the sheets with their beloved partner. Sex came in at # 6, just b4 work and sports.
So far so good. We all already knew that men r guided by their dicks, while we women, lacking such an appendix, r not.
But the truly remarkable thing that came out of that study was that both males and females love vacuum cleaning. Can u imagine? It proudly stood at # 9! Vacuum cleaning is the activity were males and females r on the same wavelength, the same page, find each other, and r holding together no matter what.
I never could understand why all these submissive alpha males were craving to do all these boring household chores. But now i know! It’s a sleazy way to con their sublime and superior goddesses into sexual activities.
Oh, and this is no fiction, but a true story as well!
Oh well..........enjoy the video. And in case u can’t understand proper English, there’s a translation coming with it.
Here’s another bunch of random thoughts of mine linked to politics, law, and leadership, brutally taken out of the context they once were part of. Some people believe that this will change or damage their meaning. There’s truth in that. But i also believe, people often use same as an escape and excuse for not to be held accountable for what they once wrote or said. Besides, a sentence taken out of its context can become more provocative, mind boggling, controversial, intense, or striking, than it ever could have been within that very context. Given for instance the long-windedness, intransparency, and incoherency of many a prose, taking things out of context can be a great thing to do. And it does fit my personality, no? I love to picture things in their extreme form, black and white, black against its darker form, and crushing the grey areas of common sense, while knowing perfectly well that each coin has three sides. Call it one of my small rebellions, my tiny revolutions against a pedestrian crowd, led by fake feminists, narrow-minded freedom fighters, and ego-tripping world healers. Btw world healers? Go here.
And remember: A tree taken out of the forest is still a tree. A coward taken out of the crowd is still a coward. And a femdom taken out of her d/s environment is still a femdom. Well….um….she should be eh? Even when disappearing in a vanilla crowd, hehehe.
Here we go.
People can't handle the truth. Politicians dislike the truth. Legal systems resist the truth.
As long as people think they need leaders, and as long as leaders think they must lead, nothing will change. Many said they came not to destroy, but destroyed anyway. Many claimed their purpose was to help others. They lied.
Laws r serving and protecting those who can’t stand people who tend to behave differently from what the lawmakers think is right or wrong. In short ……be like me, behave like me, do as i say ……or else……
And of cors laws do also exist, cos so many people dislike to stand alone, and r afraid to make the decision between what’s right and wrong on their own!
People should try to get rid of the goddamn leadership, in whatever form it presents itself or is created, and, for a change, start being responsible for their own actions. We don't need anybody to represent ourselves, to take things out of our hands, etc. Maybe then, human indifference will decrease. And don't tell me it can't be done. I live like that.
Typical patriarchal rubbish. Only women striving for silly emancipation would have an urge to rule the world, and thus becoming clones of the male of the species. The stupidity never ends.
Sometimes i play along with politicians, captains of industry, or other self- proclaimed powerhouses, gradually choking them with their own filth. And these weaklings love it even, rofl.
See? That's what i mean when i say that in these so called democratic countries, the main goal of the authorities, being them politicians, ceos, teachers, priests, etc, is to keep people in line, to indoctrinate and infect them with their lousy norms, values, and beliefs, tolerating deviation from mainstream culture only when it stays within the boundaries of the establishment and its order, while telling them they’re free, and promise them to fight for their freedom, no matter what. Liars!
There r great women as well as great men. It's just that great men need guidance from great women. So let's go for the mix, and kick the scumbags of both gender to a parallel universe or something. That's how humans ended up on this planet too, u know.
True manipulators were brainwashed by their brethren (and sisters!) not to act like a bully, taught to present themselves as overly friendly, deeply concerned about the wellbeing of their victims, and indoctrinated with the notion that audiences r less critical when perceiving them as warm, compassionate, and caring.
If u want justice, u don't try to operate within the legal system in force, as u will be slaughtered by it. If u want justice, u don't fight governments, organizations, or groups. If u want justice, u go after individuals!
If on the other hand, u want to win, to surround urself with admirers, and to be seen as a pillar of society, yes then, by all means, go and corrupt the legal system, misuse it, find its loopholes, manipulate it, and be the champ of opportunists.
It's always the vassals of the stinking and slimy shitheads in power that do the dirty work.These creeps r even more disgusting then their leaders, as they always claim it's not their fault, but the responsibility of the ones who sent them. Most r even proud of themselves to have done their duty, goddammit.
Our world leaders? Those smooth talking snakes? The ones we (well not me eh) voted for? Them carriers of democracy, a.k.a the Righteous Ones? Ah, they r only interested in playing down El Mozote and places like that, to cover it up, to delay justice, and to keep in power the ones who support their smelly interests at home.
And that’s the sadness of the majority of so called revolutionists i have knowledge of. They all need support from others, preferable from large groups of people. Only a few realize, revolution incorporates the complete break with the status quo, and more importantly, once the storm came to rest, to take care not to crawl back to what u were fighting against, to repeat the same corruptive action, and abuse ur new acquired power. All the rest is just lame compromising.
It's the price of a decaying democracy, where 1 ass has 1 vote, and the big asses r manipulating the rest of the asses, so they can sit relaxed on their fat ass, making the rest work their ass off.
In their relentless quest to at least be seen as conservative sons and daughters of the ancient ones, nowadays conservatives want to produce at least something too. Lacking the creativity of the ancient ones tho, they created copy/paste, and r copying/pasting ever since.
The liberals? I’m not sure, but according to modern day scriptures found by conservative archeologists in the hidden cellars of the Watergate Barn, they too r desperately copying/pasting. But only material that already was copied/pasted by the conservative ones.
U might ask: “What on earth r these liberated conservatives and conservative liberals copying/pasting all the time?” The answer is: “Stuff from The Other People”. Of cors without even knowing who The Other People r!
Vanilla is not a word to describe someone who is different. It is used to describe the herds, clones, and clowns of society, which r replicas of an anonymous authority, blindly defending what is not theirs but was implanted by teachers, priests, politicians, parents, and other key people, who on their turn were infected by their educators. In short, the term refers to the masses which think, act, live, and die according to the role(s) their (sub)culture expects them to play.
I can’t believe there r women, claiming to be dominant, who clip the wings of their dominance by deliberately creating a “new” set of rules, or by eagerly submitting to other people’s rules.
I enjoyed reading ur story, and loved the ironic undertones. But let me tell u, i have my own tale to tell. Mine began in 1967. After i fell from vanilla grace a few years later, i created a world, free from rites and rituals, not related to gods and goddesses, and not embedded in ancient legends, holy scriptures, myths, and truths. A short story so to speak. And a lawless one.
There is no higher power in my life than i. Any deity, any dictator, any democratic government, and any rule, law, or regulation, can go to hell. I despise them all.
As u already have noticed, i created a bunch of captions related to the topic at hand. To keep the whole thing lighthearted, and to make long stories a bit shorter, eh? Naturally developed for ur entertainment, empowerment, arousal, and happiness as well. So enjoy. Well, if u can. Pay especially attention to the last one, where it gets more serious again!
---------------------------------------- "It often takes a strong man to kneel at the feet of his wife." Not an exact quote, but words to the same effect were recently written in a blog of a woman who says she’s in a “fem/dom” marriage. Within no time there was an avalanche of praise for her wisdom. Not surprisingly, as nowadays Cyberspace is bombarded with the thoughts of people who r in, what they call, a FLR (Female Led Relationship) or FLH (Female Led Household). A FLR is mainly characterized by women who subscribe to the idea of the “loving female authority”, and men who long to serve their spouse by doing dishes, laundry, ironing, making tea for her and her friends, and…….kneel at her feet. Quite often said males also crave to run around with a device attached to their genitalia preventing them from jerking off. Sometimes they love to watch their wives getting fucked by other men too. To make this look and sound more sophisticated, they call this cuckolding. All this is thought to be only possible for truly strong and special males, strictly led by powerful and loving females. It seems these people need to constantly convince themselves, and others, what a rare and special breed they r. Which of cors they r not. At best they’re at the periphery of their vanilla culture, experimenting a bit with mainly deep seated male fantasies and frustrations. Rarely will this result in the “real thing”, as they always find excuses for not taking "the last step", i.e. "the kids", "work", "parents", "society", and Lilith knows what.
Aficionados of FLR often mistakenly think their practice and intended role reversal (some call this "power exchange" lol), is similar to femdom, which of cors it is not.
I commented at that time: "It often takes a strong man...."? That's how it is pictured yes. But is it true? Or is it simply hearsay? Maybe wishful thinking too? Do u speak from own experience perhaps? In that case, how many men knelt at ur feet so u felt safe enough to generalize from that?
Did i get an answer? No. The man to whom initially her blog was directed to, commented: "I agree with you 100% that it takes a strong man to kneel at the feet of His Lady. Like a Knight with his Queen." Since this man was a follower of my blog, and belonged to a people i have a special bond with, i replied: "…….it certainly doesn't take a strong man to kneel at the feet of a woman. It's really nothing actually. Quite simple even. Easiest thing in the world i’d say. Try it, and u'll see. Well...um.....unless ur legs had to be amputated after they were hit by a Hezbollah shell or something."
Combined with a few other exchanges the 2 of us had, this was enough for him to stop following me, and to delete my comments from his blog. I’m sure he’s still pouting, hehehe.
Seriously now. Why all the fuzz? Why should it be so difficult to go down on ur knees? Why should it be such a big thing to kneel at the feet of ur wife, gf, or any other woman? Besides, what’s the point? If a dominant woman tells u to go down on ur knees, u just go, no? U simply do as u r told, no? No strength needed for that at all. On the contrary, it would take a strong man to not go down then. And if she doesn’t order u to kneel, then what the heck r u doing down there in the first place eh? Some believe that kissing a woman’s feet is an act of respect and love, or a reward for "good" behavior. I think it’s more an act based on ancient patriarchal thinking and medieval courtliness, and particularly rooted in the rites, dogmas, and rituals of monotheistic religions, where guilt, penitence, sacrifice, humility, and bowing down to a superior being r the driving forces. Add to this the hypocrisy of all these whining self-professed submissive males, who actually don’t want to give up control, et voilá, their struggle with bowing down to a woman is explained. It’s a major sacrifice for them. So no wonder they want to be seen as strong and special.
Kneeling at the feet of a woman has nothing to do with femdom, and the only time i would consider to order a men to get down on his knees, would be in a vanilla situation when, for instance, i have him at gunpoint.
It’s no secret. I’m crazy about dancing. With me on the floor, there’s no escape. U either will dance with me, and i mean DANCE, or i will turn my back at u, never to see u again! So u better be careful, and seriously make up ur mind, b4 deciding to go with me to this sacred place. Be sure also about ur dancing skills, cos if u flunk, and r unable to follow my moves, u r out as well.
And when a man can dance, i mean really can move his body to the rhythm, it makes me ready to even allow him to guide my own moves. When that happens, orgasm is inevitable. For both of us. Picture it :)
R u that risk taker? R u that dare devil? To lose ur reputation, and feel ridiculous the minute the music starts? Yes? U must be good. U must be very good. I can hardly wait to unite with u! Or u r a fool, who simply went into the trap, defenseless now, a willing prey, eagerly waiting to be slaughtered mercilessly.
Come on then, pump up the volume, loosen up, and let’s dance already! Even if it’s only virtually, and u will be left all alone there when it’s over, and never will have that orgasm. Or will u, hehehe?
Oh, and the next time u r in Buenos Aires, forget the mediocre hotels u usually stay in. This time stay in the Faena + Universe. And don’t forget to visit Salón Canning. When there, ask for me, and even if i’m not there, i’m sure someone will tell u a story u will never forget :)
It was brought to my attention that lots of people want to know more about me, my personality, whereabouts, likes, dislikes etc. Which is rather odd, cos there’s plenty of info about me in this blog, and elsewhere in the virtual world. And besides…… most of them lack the courage to share even a minimum of info about themselves, and rather stay in hiding, lol. Not that this would matter to me tho. I know my pappenheimers (grin).
Can’t find it u say? Seriously? Well in that case, either u r a dumbass, incapable of reading and/or searching, or the usual grumbler only interested in grumble. But hey, never mind, this is ur day, as many moons ago when Yahoo 360 was still alive, a friend sent me this questionnaire, and as the good friend that i am, i took the time at that time to answer her questions, which she probably copied/pasted from a silly internet site. So get informed, enjoy, dislike, whatever, but make sure to……… remember.
1. Height?
5’11”
2. Have you ever smoked heroin?
No.
3. Do you own a gun?
Yes, more than one.
4. Do you get nervous before doctor appointments?
It’s the doc who’s getting nervous when i enter his practice.
5. What do you think of hot dogs?
Well, as long as they’re a foot long……
6. What's your favorite Christmas song?
None.
7. What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
Nothing, as mostly i’m sleeping then.
8. Can you do push ups?
Yes. The question should have been tho…….how many?!
9. Is your bathroom clean?
All of them?
10. What's your favorite piece of jewelry?
A braided silver belt, 4”wide.
11. Do you like painkillers?
Why should pain be killed?
12. Do you have A.D.D.?
No.
13. ??????????????
Oh jolly, i loooove question marks.
14. Middle Name?
None.
15. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment?
Hair, sweat, horse. Oh geeez......new moment already. I pass.
16. Name the last 3 things you have bought?
Leather dress, ice-cream, nail polish.
17.Name 3 drinks you regularly drink:
Wine, water, cranberry juice.
20. What happened to18 and 19 ??????????
They’re bickering about numbers.
21. Current worry?
None.
22. Current hate?
Fascists & company.
23. Favorite place to be?
That Place
24. How did you bring in the New Year?
Can’t remember.
25. Where would you like to go?
A parallel universe.
26. Do you own slippers?
Yes.
27. What shirt are you wearing?
No shirt here right now.
28. Do you tan or burn?
Tan. (I burn others tho.)
29. Favorite color(s)?
Black, blue, red, and dark black.
30. Would you be a pirate?
What u mean……would?
31. What songs do you sing in the shower?
Russian and Gypsy folksongs, arias from Lucia di Lammamoor, Carmen etc.
32. What did you fear that was going to get you at night as a child? Hmmmm, i was waiting to get THEM eh.
33. What's in your pockets right now?
No pockets.
34. Last thing that made you laugh?
This questionnaire.
35. Best bed sheets as a child?
Whatever. All i know is, that i love the leather ones i have now.
36.Worst injury you've ever had?
Bullet in the chest.
37. How many TVs do you have in your house?
Haven’t counted them.
38. Who is your loudest friend?
It’s unusual for people to raise their voice when i’m around.
39. Who is your most silent friend?
The one(s) i had to bury
40. Does someone have a crush on you?
Many r suffering from that.
41. Do u wish on shooting stars?
Never.
42. What is your favorite book?
Go look in my profile.
43. What song do/did you want played at your wedding?
Marriage? R u kidding?
44. What song do you want played at your funeral?
Pietro Mascagni's Intermezzo from Cavalleria Rusticana.
45. What were you doing @ 12 AM last night?
Changing into something comfortable.
46. What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up?
First……..What the heck. Split second later…………..Ah ……….smells delicious.
So now u know.
Um......it's not my fault she left out all the questions u so desperately wanted answers to eh?
Dominant female, promoting feminine femdom, as opposed to trendy and recreational femdom.
My slaves r powerful, challenging, lustful, and hungry for my whip. Together we ridicule fascists, quasi-femdoms, and boy scouts.
