Sunday, July 26, 2009
That Place
I know of a Place
A Place, where women do terrible and cruel things to each other.
Things no male could ever imagine, nor could he endure.
It’s a Place, where the ultimate torture, and the ultimate tenderness,
Are melting together into one incredible act of love.
A Place, where the hidden desires of the flesh, the forbidden
Feelings of lust, are meeting the fantasies of the mind, and seamlessly
Are welded together, forming an unity, never to be broken again.
I know of a Place
A Place, where boots, leather and rubber garments,
Iron collars and chains, are not just that. They are the skins
Of animals, the juices of plants, and the ores of the
Earth, clinging to our bodies, uniting, synchronizing,
And synergizing with us.
It’s a Place, where the branding is not merely
A way of torture. It’s the symbol of power,
Representing the sun, the fire of life.
I know of a Place
It’s the Place of the Deva’s. It’s their place on this earth,
Where wisdom and lust, pain and pleasure, evil and love,
Are measured in terms of the bending universe,
Embedded in the microcosms of their bodies and minds.
A Place of encountering soul mates, combining
Seemingly paradoxical extremes into one
Powerful singularity, where one moment in time,
Is all time. Hyperbolical time.
I know that Place, cos it’s my place!
And that of my sisters.
It’s also the place, where men are suffering
Under our boots, deep down in the Labyrinth,
Receiving the lashes of despotic women, who are
Just laughing at, and ridiculing the species
That wants so desperately to be our slave.
But once in a while
A miracle occurs.
Then one of those slaves
Becomes a soul mate as well,
And he belongs to us,
Is one of us,
Forever
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Two comments from the 360 days i want u to read here, One from an Austrian lady, Gomorrha, who i found quite special, although we broke up, and my reply on hers.
G: *giggles* i almost pity you. such beautiful, atmospheric writing and then...
it looks like you are on an entirely different level and people try to grasp a tiny wisp of the meaning behind your words. they try to reflect you to please you. very entertaining. which type of devas are you then? that word is used in different ways and meanings. and i am curious.
A: We r not a 'type' lol. We r women in our own right, and yet refuse to carry a label. We leave that to others, who’ll never cease to label us.
Ur right, it is used in many ways and meanings, cos people lost connection to the original ones. Due to the very nature of deva, it’s difficult to describe same, without damaging the essence of it. Deva is rather a feeling, an emotion, and most of the times not really tangible, It’s a feeling of intense connection to others, of freedom, of standing alone, of having disconnected from vanilla values, norms, and paradigms. Even when trying to explain this to u, i feel i’m not touching the core of it. Maybe this will do: It’s like burning ice.
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
Trust
Picture urself: Bound, hooded, and helpless. Then u hear her coming, that cruel lady u were longing for all of ur life, to become her slave, her doormat, for her to do with whatever she would like. U vowed u would die for a woman like that. No question about it. And now u r here. With her.
Ur heart is racing. Ur blood vessels hardly can take the pressure, pulsating in agony. U feel a weakness to ur knees. But u will stand tall. U r a man, a slave. A slave to this magnificent and terrifying creature, ur Goddess. This is ur day!
U r mega turned on now. U lost all control. U surrendered. U r owned.
Her rubber gloved hands start exploring ur naked and vulnerable body, mercilessly grabbing ur rock hard cock, squeezing and massaging same till it feels like surgical steel. Heaven is upon u. U want to come. But u restrain urself. Not yet, not yet. Later, later. This can’t stop now. This must continue first. This is what u want. This is what u would kill for.
Then something cold is pressed against ur bursting shaft. U realize it's that razor sharp knife she's always carrying with her, always hanging from that 4" wide black leather belt she’s mostly wearing, and which is accentuating that incredibly sexy waist u adore so much.
Like a flash of lightning a question pops up in ur enchanted brain: “What the heck she’s going to do with that knife?” But u r not alarmed. Not even by the thundering thunder which preceded the flash. Oh no. Not u! Far from it. After all, this saint of a woman promised u to take u to church this coming Sunday, as her slave, leashed, for all to see. U r convinced. She’s harmless. Ur cock is throbbing again.
She's increasing the knife's pressure now, pressing her body heavily against urs, giving u a taste of her voluptuous breasts, and the leather that's tightly encasing them. Ur getting even more aroused now. U r bursting from lust, although u r quivering too. She forces one of her gloved fingers into ur mouth. Eagerly u start sucking on it, tasting rubber and blood. Blood? Yes, ur blood! But u don't worry. U don't panic. U feel totally at ease. No fear is bothering u. No doubt either. What bad things on earth could ever happen to u? Nothing at all! U r completely safe. U have a contract. U agreed upon role play. Nothing else. All this is just a game, not real. It’s only an act, and a delicious one at that. Like u, this woman is only playing. In Goddess u Trust.
Then, suddenly, there’s that other smell. Chloroform, coming from a cloth clinging to the rubber gloves of ur adored tormentress, ur angel, the one who so often took ur breath away when u were watching that lean, leather clad body of hers, coming ur way, like a predator moving towards its prey, her long bluish black hair dancing on the rhythm and sound created by the heels of her supple crotch high leather boots.
Mesmerized and satisfied u struggle a bit, but then happily cooperate with ur owner, and deeply inhale what’s forced upon u. With a smile on ur face, hidden by that thick rubber hood u love and hate so much, u doze away, like a new born baby, assured that all is good, and all is well.
When u wake up, a strange feeling is encompassing ur body and soul. A feeling u never experienced b4 with ur Goddess. It feels like pain, horrifying pain. And then it comes to u, and u just know..........something is missing, something is gone. Forever!
But her sweet sensual metal voice, still lingering in ur brain, is whispering: "All is good, all is well".
Sunday, July 19, 2009
Static Poetry
As with most spectacular, majestic, and mind blowing phenomena, created by humans, there r not only the attempts to silence them, but also the attempts to rape them, to disfigure them, and to take the beauty and essence out of them. I saw this done to femdom, to democracy, to art in general, and to poetry. The sad thing is, that this is done mostly by what we call, decent and good people, or what i prefer to call, clones, marionettes, or one dimensional liberated conservators, trying to preserve, and reinforce, paradigms, dogmas, norms and values of a certain society. Their poetry i call static poetry. It's poetry, where melodramatic sadness prevails, where delusional happiness is celebrated to no end, and where a never to exist world is presented to us as if it were real, or could become real. This kind of poetry never criticizes, never goes into a discussion, never offers solutions, never goes into battle, never dares to descend to the depths of where the soul gets ugly, is never creative, and is never personal. On the contrary, it's all about peace, guilt, harmony, religious sin, patience, love, acceptance, repent, tolerance, pseudo pain, and denial of the harsh, violent, and unjust world we're living in. This poetry resembles a stinking pink swamp. No current there, no movement at all. Just a standstill, adored by rigid zombies, who believe they're life itself.
Cyberspace is infested with this crap. I'm a member of a few poetry sites like that. When i dare to criticize there, i'm ignored or censored, lol. Some of my former Yahoo 'friends' created such sites , and indulge together with their 'friends' in daily uploading and reading stuff which should be transported to a mean landfill instead. They feel like martyrs, suffering from everlasting frustration, unable to resist the attraction of safe masochism at home, sheltered heroism, and the support of their equally lousy peers. No wonder they're always praising each other. Well, as long as it doesn't cost them eh?
Here's a different one:
You move with limbs of snake,
You destroy what bores you,
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The first time this blog saw the light of day, it triggered a comment from my Elizabeth. She’s a crazy one, that one. Like me, totally smitten by and addicted to rubber riding boots (and ….um….a few other nasty things, although she claims to be the sweetest thing ever). I want u to read it, as well as what followed, lol.
E: I already admired you for your great exterior beauty, but now I can see that comes from an even more beautiful interior...I could love you for both, but I'll surely love you for the latter.
A: Now picture us, clad in shiny black mackintoshes, wearing our even more black rubber riding boots, strolling together in the Highlands of Scotland during rainy and stormy weather, enjoying the view when resting at the banks of Loch Ness, drinking some exquisite Laphroaig in Inbhir Nis, traveling later to Glencoe, where we will stay the night in the Ballachulish Hotel, forgetting all the crap this world is offering us on a daily basis.
E: Yes, I'm really speechless at this picture you painted, so incredibly adhering to my dreams. You certainly have, among your qualities, a sixth sense, like a beautiful female cat, to know that those are my favorite places in the world...That hotel in Ballachulish, on the bend right there before the lake...so warm, so intimate, especially with a goddess in rubber riding boots like you at my side, walking hand in hand...Who said that you can't reach heaven on this earth? I'd change only a small detail: my favorite is Glenfarclas 25 y.o.(LOL)
A: Now imagine this: We both take a mouthful (ok ok, half), then kiss and mix the 2, finding out how this blend tastes.Or shall we skip both, and just switch to the queen of queens: Macallan? Maybe a bit expensive, but not expensive enough for two priceless women.
I Love Poisonous Love
With marvelous luxury
And make more than one fabulous portal appear
In the gold of its red mist
Like a sun setting in a cloudy sky.
Opium magnifies that which is limitless,
Lengthens the unlimited,
Makes time deeper, hollows out voluptuousness,
And with dark, gloomy pleasures
Fills the soul beyond its capacity.
All that is not equal to the poison which flows
From your eyes, from your green eyes,
Lakes where my soul trembles and sees its evil side...
My dreams come in multitude
To slake their thirst in those bitter gulfs.
All that is not equal to the awful wonder
Of your biting saliva,
Charged with madness, that plunges my remorseless soul
Into oblivion
And rolls it in a swoon to the shores of death.
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Et pour les connoisseurs .................................
Le vin sait revêtir le plus sordide bouge
D'un luxe miraculeux,
Et fait surgir plus d'un portique fabuleux
Dans l'or de sa vapeur rouge,
Comme un soleil couchant dans un ciel nébuleux.
L'opium agrandit ce qui n'a pas de bornes,
Allonge l'illimité,
Approfondit le temps, creuse la volupté,
Et de plaisirs noirs et mornes
Remplit l'âme au delà de sa capacité.
Tout cela ne vaut pas le poison qui découle
De tes yeux, de tes yeux verts,
Lacs où mon âme tremble et se voit à l'envers...
Mes songes viennent en foule
Pour se désaltérer à ces gouffres amers.
Tout cela ne vaut pas le terrible prodige
De ta salive qui mord,
Qui plonge dans l'oubli mon âme sans remords,
Et charriant le vertige,
La roule défaillante aux rives de la mort!
This was taken from Beaudelaire’s "Fleurs du mal"
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
Abandon Hope
Hope is crushing ur potential to keep ur life in ur own hands, and to dictate ur own future. It’s paralyzing u, and makes u inert. It’s an error to believe hope could help u to overcome difficulties, problems, and desperate hours. It was implanted in u by anonymous forces operating in ur culture. U were indoctrinated with the thought that hope was good for u. In fact u were brainwashed with the idea that something outside u was meant to do all the work while u were expected to do nothing but…………….. hoping. Hoping for the best? Sure. But, at times, also hoping for mega misfortune cracking down on ur enemies no? Maybe ur neighbor? Ur mother? Me?
But why? Why were u poisoned with this venom called hope? Cos through all ages (well as far as i know eh) people hate it when a person is going his/her way, is walking a different road, is deviating from the norm. Cattle and clones r applauded and praised. Individuality is condemned. Oh sure, at times it seems as if society is stimulating diversity, is encouraging originality. But not really. It is done only to keep the stray dogs, at least figuratively, leashed, to keep them within the group, and to give them a feeling that, although the r loners, they’re still welcome, and still belong to the crowd. And it works u know, as even rebels seem to abhor getting abandoned by the ones they dislike and dismiss. Well………. at least some of them. Few r able to disconnect from their surrounding society, and truly follow a path through the jungle cut by themselves.
So………. u r allowed and encouraged to hope, to hope endlessly, as it will keep u from acting, and in bondage. Vanilla bondage!
But again. Why does this happen? Why is this repeated ad nauseam? It’s fear of the unknown, and fear of change. It is fear of low self-esteem, and to feel insignificant. It is fear of looking in the mirror, and realizing how small u became, how u messed up, how u threw away the most precious thing in ur life, how u were slaughtered on the altar of conformity, how u sacrificed ur potentials just to be allowed to stay in ur group, to be accepted by cattle like urself. Now u will fight to preserve this status quo. Oh, not by urself, not like a lone warrior, but only when backed by ur group. And they will, they will, they will. Just to make sure they don’t have to look into their own mirror. Holy war!
As long as everybody thinks and acts the same way, people believe that what they’re thinking is the truth, and that their actions r right and valuable. No reflection is needed in a situation like that. All is well and all is good. In fact, this is Utopia, that horrible world where differing from the norm is not tolerated. The law is the law, average is king, dogma is holy, and hypocrisy is the tool to go soft on those who rebel but not revolt. It’s that world where u feel uneasy, knowing something is wrong, filled with hope, hope that things will work out while waiting in ur comfortable chair, treasuring ur social security, ur stock portfolio, watching CNN, letting the atrocities of this world pass u by on ur plasma screen while sipping ur coffee, and hoping that someone hopefully will do something about it. But……it will be hoping in vain and waiting for Godot. In fact, u don’t even care. Although u say u r hoping for instance that the poor will be fed one day, that war will come to an end, and that girls one day won’t be stoned to death just for having laid eyes on an a boy who is culturally/religiously not supposed to be with them, u will go ur daily routine, and reserve hope for ur own missing links.
So, the ones who r allowed by me to walk through that corridor to The Labyrinth, they better abandon all hope, as there will be no place for that in That Place. In my place u r all alone, all by urself, totally independent with all power to be urs, completely free, even when chained by me, tortured by me, whipped by me, and abandoned by me without hope. U feel this is a contradiction? Maybe even a paradox. Illogical? Pathological too? Well, in that case……….don’t hope i ever will call on u.
Monday, July 13, 2009
On Male Dominance
This thing began with him announcing in his blog that he was a switch, triggering in me the comment, that this was impossible, as maledom doesn't exist and is only an illusion. I have put forward this many times, and the responses were always the same, and equally ridiculous. Sure there r dominant males. Without any doubt even, and way too many too. But......... only in the vanilla world, where their glorious dominance created many disasters, leaving behind a complete mess in many areas. Yessery, the male of the species can be extremely dominant the vanilla way. Kind of a King Kong way actually, with a lot of noise, brag, physical and mental violence, and other garbage. Underneath however, these men r just like that ape, rather insecure, quite emotional, unbalanced, and maybe even tender (the only way my Elizabeth would allow them to come near her, hehehe!), but.....they would poop their pants if someone would notice. Instead, they’re obsessed with standing tall, showing women and other males who’s the boss, etc. Just check out a few so-called world leaders, or ur local bar, and u’ll find them easily.
All this is still going on, and will continue for a long time to come.
So, to the naïve observer our planet is just crowded with dominant males. But when it comes to the realm of d/s, to my world of sexual slavery, these men cease to exist. Not so u say? Sure, sure, moi observed too: A lot of playing is going on on our sacred kinky grounds, during the weekend, when the kids r at grandmas, in fetish clubs, and in some isolated castle of a deranged baron. Mainly cos so many females r playing along with these Masters of the Universe, making it look as if some males r domineering within the d/s environment as well. More or less like it is with mainstream femdom, where submissive women r lured into playing the domina, by their topping from the bottom subbie (yuck).
The best these males can do in d/s is to make even bigger caricatures of themselves than they r already, presenting themselves as Masters (bang….. now don’t u dare to skip the capital M eh?), running around punishing females or their own buddies, organizing and attending to conferences on bdsm, visiting munches, discussing ad nauseam all kind of d/s issues, and seeking acceptance from other erring individuals, while suppressing even more their inner longing to be slave to a woman. I only allow these types near me when in the mood to show them how easily i can make them do my bidding, how easily i can make them crawl for me. Then send them home!
“Yes Ayesha, we know already. U can stop now! U r absolutely right. There r many vanilla male dominants, and plenty of fake dominant males in the velvet underground. But r u really sure, there r not at least a few males, only a tiny minority perhaps, who r genuine dominant when it comes to sexual slavery?” Hmmmmm, now don’t get me mad eh? I can tell u first hand, and only out of first hand eh, as i don't trust story telling so much, that i never have met a true male dominant in my life. All the Masters who crossed my path, and mind u, i've traveled a lot, were more than willing to become my slave, or didn't dare to resist me whenever i had set my mind to it. Even those who made me doubt my conviction fell for me in the end, at times stalking me long after i had dismissed them. So no……..there r no genuine, non-vanilla, dominant males. And there never will be any creatures like that either! When it comes to sex, males can only flourish when being a slave to a woman. Sexual slavery makes a male more powerful and free than he ever could be otherwise.
Btw, a switch can't be a dominant as per definition. One can't be a genuine dominant and submissive simultaneously. Switching from one mode to the other is only possible when one is acting like an actor, ergo is playing. I'm not a player. Femdom is carved in my soul, in my brain, in my clothing, in my whip, in my music, and all the rest of my being and life. I don't go into domspace, snapping out of it when a session (grrrr, what a horrible word) is over. Neither do my slaves dwell part of the day in subspace and the rest of the time in other spaces. That's how it should be, and how it should stay. That’s what d/s is about. A 24/7/365 passionate way of living. Nothing more, nothing less. And no role play whatsoever eh? Never. Period. Hmmmm.......i take that back. When i would want u to play a role, u'd have no other option than to obey! Even if that would be the role of a maledom, lol! Don't worry tho. I only would do silly stuff like that when cranky. Not when moody or so. Then i would simply let u drop dead, ignore u, and forget u even existed, not caring if/how this would affect u at all.
What's that? What do i hear? Ah....... i see. My definition is not holy eh? My view is not universal eh? It's simply an opinion, no? Everybody has the right to fill in whatever he/she likes, to suit that person's taste, no matter how stupid that taste may be, right? Go ahead. Exercise ur one dimensional democratic rights. I won't stop u. Make a mess out of d/s as well. Rape it, take away its essence, its glory, its venom, its passion, and make it mediocre, mainstream, boring, and dull. And mind u, keep it especially ssc (that’s safe sane and consensual, u moron). And whilst u r to it, why not put a few lawmakers to work, writing the Bill of Slave Rights? Soon there'll be a Slave Union to defend those rights and bring me, Ayesha, to justice.
Picture it. In the future, femdom will be a service to Emperor Slave and King Subbie. Hmmmmm.... in the future? It's here already lololol. Like the Other World Queendom of Master Male. But......... not in my place. And not where i go!
Don't get me wrong. I love males. Very much so. Well, i mean the ones who r going with the core of their being, the powerful ones, a.k.a slaves. But........ i love women more! Why is that? Plenty of reasons, but a major one is………they can take more, and whine less. And u know who r the biggest whiners of them all, the ones who can’t even take a softly administered caress of my single tail? U guessed it, smartass: Maledoms.
Thursday, July 9, 2009
Ἀποκάλυψις 4
Oh, and in case u r a bit like me, watch the video at the end, visit their website, and ….. well u decide what will be next!
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Yersinia Pestis
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Der zum Tode gezeichneten Kinder Nacht!
To my Elizabeth, and all others who want to be my ally
I know of a Jewish (!) man, whose fantasy it is, to be imprisoned in a concentration camp, craving to be tortured, dehumanized, and finally killed, by brutal female Nazi guards. I know of a woman, who’s getting wet, by fantasizing of babies and little children, being raped, tortured, and eaten, by Nazi butchers, in front of their parents. I can feel for these people, i can see their burden, but i’d never condone/defend their fantasy or behavior, and certainly they never could be my friends.
As Nazism, fascism, and totalitarianism, has developed many faces, and is exploiting many disguises, due to the fact that the use of these words became more or less outlawed in many parts of the world, there should be no doubt, it crawled back up from the sewers, under a variety of names. Just as it was once defined by Hitler cs, as a social movement, it is now alive under the flag of many democracies. Not only in Third World countries, but in so called high developed countries as well. It erupted in Africa, Asia, South-America, the USA, as well as in Europe. Even in one of Earth’s most democratic countries, the Netherlands, there exists a party, with representatives in parliament, which is leaning toward fascism. Of cors its members r denying this vigorously.
More than once i was accused, of only opposing Nazism in its purest form, and the atrocities resulting from it during WWII. Some of my prosecutors were simply trying to play down the horrors of Nazism, and trying to let me see what a hypocrite i was, for not addressing the filth that’s going on nowadays as well, others were just morons defending themselves for feeling attracted to Nazism, while only a small part was genuine in their remarks. Be that as it may, it should be clear, i’m opposed to any form of fascism/Nazism, no matter how it makes its appearance. That’s why, in the realm of d/s, i ridicule, laugh at, and am opposed to all the silly games, were punishment, degradation, and humiliation r celebrated, even when the participants r not in the Nazi-scene.
But it’s true, i decided to side with the Jewish people, and the gypsies. This inevitably brought, and perhaps will bring again, misery and sorrow to others, which saddens me, but never will stop me. Sometimes, it’s hard to live up to this decision, but i found it better, than to sit at the sideline, criticizing and commenting from my sheltered home, leaving the dirty work to the ones who went out to protect me and my people. Still, it’s my desire to avoid all this, and to never have to be involved with war and war-like activities again. Reason for me, to crush the ill seed of Nazism and its brothers and sisters, even b4 it sprouts. In here, and in r/l. It’s much better than to let it grow, and when it’s full blown , to have to go out there again, with tanks, planes, bombs, and a couple of reservists, who forgot how to fight and kill.
There is no kink in Nazism. Only filth.
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All the roads led to death,
all the roads.
All the winds breathed betrayal,
all the winds.
At all the doorways angry dogs barked,
at all the doorways.
All the waters laughed at us,
all the waters.
All the nights fattened on our dread,
all the nights.
And the heavens were bare and empty,
all the heavens.
God hid his face.
Rajzel Zychlinzky
http://www.genocideintervention.net/
Epilogue
And i say to all narrow minded morons suffering from xenophobia, all those having the need to dehumanize others, all fascists and anti-Semites, all members of hate groups, and all other righteous ones, whoever they r, wherever they r, crawling on the surface of this planet, or hiding beneath it, don’t bother to find me, to come after me, and to destroy me, as i, the one who’s carrying all the genes that u hate so much, am already on my way to u. Herstory taught me not to wait. I’m the huntress now, and u r my prey.
One thing more for these people to know. I don’t believe in war anymore. I don’t believe war can bring solutions. I don’t fight countries, organizations or groups anymore. I go after individuals, the building blocks of this filth.
I have no drive to destroy. I hate violence. But the ones who can only survive by seeking a scapegoat for their own failures, destroying same in the name of whatever, i will send to their filthy ancestors nevertheless, the minute i smell their stinking personalities.
My brothers and sisters r those of Masada and Mila 18, not the ones who negotiate, work out compromises, or hide.
Then my Elizabeth said:
Yes, I feel that way too. We're not preys anymore, but huntresses. Gone are the days of hiding...like Goethe said: Fear knocked on the door, I opened it...and there was nobody.
And i replied:
Now fear is knocking at some other doors, and u can rest assured i will be there when they open same.
Monday, July 6, 2009
Nanshakh's Story
Nanshakh is not only the best femdom artist ever, he's also a fabulous writer. Mr Modesty doesn't believe so himself, but he's a master with words. He, the master, told me time and again he's not as convinced as i am. Sometimes he's even complaining that his stories, essays, and articles r way to loooooong. Such nonsense! When one can compile prose like his, it's never to loooooong. But beware when he gets grumpy, feels offended, or is at war with the world, or me. Then pure venom is coming ur/my way.
Oh, b4 we go on, don't let the title below scare u, as the remainder of this blog entry is in good old english. It wouldn't hurt tho, if u would pick up a few more languages on ur way to ur grave eh?
And when he's mentioning "this group", he's of cors referring to the action - uh....um...er....cough........scuse me - going on in http://groups.yahoo.com/group/ayeshasslavetrader/ for which group he once wrote this gem.
Anyway, here goes.
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Les barricades mystérieuses
Imagine, this is the end of the seventeenth century, in some kingdom in western Europe. The setting: the ruins of a fortified abbey, probably the scene of some disgusting massacre when it was burnt and dismantled during some skirmishes. The place has always been abandoned ever since, and of course, rumours have it that it is haunted. Oh yes, i forgot, for atmosphere, put some appropriate music on, something like Couperin's 'Les barricades mystérieuses' (not that it's especially appropriate, but the title is). Now and then a half moon breaks through the low, fast moving clouds, making the remnants of arches stand gloomily above the layers of mist... and you notice the dark shapes moving stealthily amongst the ruins. At first, you're not sure, and a cloud plunges the scene in darkness again. Suddenly, in a ray of moonlight, you un-mistakingly spot sinister human shapes, draped and hooded in black. Glimpsed for a short moment before they disappear behind some stack of crumbled stones. Gives you the creep eh? Well, it should. I'm scared stiff already. Have i mentioned that there are some disturbing noises around you, unexplained, hardly perceived creakings and hisses and squeals, and then, a wolf is howling in the distance. Shudder. Maybe not such a big distance away actually...
But you go ahead. You are not scared by these mysterious silhouettes. It's your turn now to step out of the woods, and to walk straight through the mist, into the ruins. Others now walk alongside you, converging silently towards the same point. They don't seem to pay any attention to you, which is not surprising, since you too, you're draped in a long black cape, and your face is hidden under a high pointed black hood with only slants for your eyes. Just behind an arch, you find the steps going down into the ground, at the bottom of which a torch is spilling some reddish glow. Soon, you are walking with tens and tens of your companions, walking endlessly along a torch lit corridor that goes down... and down.... Only the shuffling of all the long black robes can be heard. Not a single voice breaks the silence.
After what has felt like a slow descent into some icy hell, you enter a huge crypt, huge as a cathedral, it's vaults so high that they disappear in darkness. Stepped rows of seats carved into the rock flank each side, and you can't help thinking of an army of ants as the silent black hooded shapes invades them.
Now the rows of seats are filled. You too have sat.
Torches seem to light up by enchantment at the end of the hall, discovering a massive stone stage, and a long narrow and steep stairway descending from the high vault straight onto it. In the absolute silent, all facing toward the stage, the attendance stands up while someone comes down. At first only her shapely legs are visible in the dim, dancing light of the torches, the sharp heels of the black boots clicking in the huge dark crypt. Then her sculptural figure appears fully. She is a slim, tall woman, dressed in a short black leather dress, with a large belt richly inlaid with gold and silver arabesques. Her hair is gathered in a high pony tail, held tight by a golden ring. She is not hooded, though her eyes are hidden by a slim black mask that allows you to admire her full red lips, curled in some cruel, smirking grin. She pauses at the bottom of the stairs, standing arrogantly, surveying her subdued, respectful audience, acknowledging their palpable apprehension. Hundreds and hundreds of members suspended to her will. Only her left hand is casually toying with the handle of a large bullwhip, resting on her shoulder. More a sceptre of her power than a whip.
An hour goes by before another member dares to stand.
Sunday, July 5, 2009
Chesssssss......
Chess, the game where intellects collide, bound by strict rules and time restrictions. Ah, how wonderful this game can be, and how boring at the same time. For instance, all those well analyzed openings, where every move is always the same,.......till someone comes along, who doesn't care at all about tradition, or what the (FIDE) grandmasters painfully r prescribing for the lesser gifted, as the 'best' continuation. A player recognizing that psychological intimidation, seduction, body language, setting traps, and yesssss......a lot of attitude, ever changing attitudes, is of much more importance to make an exciting game (and to win it too), than intellect.
Would u believe, that any man, i repeat, any man, would have a very hard time to win me in chess, no matter his IQ, experience or skill, when i'm sitting there, opposite to him, dressed in an exquisite black leather evening gown, skyscraper heels, and matching silver jewelry, with my bluish black hair cascading to my waist, occasionally walking to his side of the table, caressing his feverish head with one of my gloved hands, whispering a few suggestions for continuation in his ear, while he's trying to concentrate on his next move, desperately seeking a way out of the position i brought him in? Sometimes, i even tell him the right moves, lol, but of cors he doesn't trust me, programmed as he is, not to expect this from his enemy.
U know, although i never lost since i was in my teens, to win is not really what i'm interested in. It's the interaction which does it for me, which makes me play again. I just love to see a renowned player going through stages like self-confidence, arrogance, hope, disbelief, agony, resurrection, despair, and in the end, left without any options. When huge bets r on the table, it's even more exciting. But of cors, there r also the real players, the ones who r like me, not only using their intellect. It's then, when chess is played, as it should be played: Sweet, merciless, passionate, using all there is, to near the singularity, a one moment in time connection between two opposites, an out of this world explosive unification. Of cors, it's not a game then in the traditional sense, but just another expression of how i want to live.
Playing chess like that always triggers reactions in the field. I can tell. I had my share, especially coming from 'real' players, the dedicated ones, the competitive ones, the ones playing tournaments and so. Mostly they r outraged, complaining that my behavior has nothing to do with chess at all, accusing me of violating the rules, that i'm not fair, so on. They probably belong to the guild of knights, who when in battle, will return the sword to their opponent, once he has lost it in the heat of the fight. To keep it clean, honest, and fair eh? I'm not like that. On the contrary, i will do everything to distract my opponent, to make him lose interest in his sword, and then........go for the kill. But what a sweet death it will be.
U would rather go for the only intellectual approach u say, keeping it traditional, and playing by the book? Be my guest. Noticed the pic on top? It's ----> Mate in 6. Black to move. Go for it! It will be a bit time consuming tho. If u could do it at all that is (smile). Or r u that good? Really? Show me.
Saturday, July 4, 2009
Lilith and Eve
So here it is in a nutshell (with a few changes to the original):
Lilith is the seductress, the one who possesses males and females. She’s the archetype of freedom, independency, assertiveness, sexual aggression, and honesty. She doesn't take no for an answer, and will always have her way. She's extremely beautiful, erratic, moody, sensual, manipulative, radiating dominance, and never ages. When she's entering a store, a restaurant, an opera house, a gallery, or a sleazy underground bar, there's instant silence. When she's dancing, time stands still. When she decides to have a sexual encounter, it will mark the life of the chosen one, and the experience will be engraved in his/her soul forever. While all men want her, nobody will have her. She will enslave anybody she wants, and is never asking for consent. She laughs at the supplications of pathetic males, who vow they want to be her slave forever, knowing they could never live up to their fantasies, and r only looking for a surrogate mommy, who's willing to give them satisfaction. Most women want to be like her, but r afraid to put same into action. However, there r a few who r resembling her, actually r her. Those women r femdoms.
Eve (Hawa) represents the mother, the spouse, the one who's taking care of her man, the house and the kids, a la the ideas of the Hamisha Humshei Torah, the Bible, the Qur'an, and for instance Heidegger. She's the submissive one, however with her own agenda, often trying to lure the male into actions he doesn't really want, but submits to, cos he's living in the illusion he's the boss after all, having a housekeeper and a sex partner to his disposition whenever needed, and also due to his inner hidden longing for a tyrannical, despotic woman, who owns him as her slave, taking away his burden of responsibility, and unbearable guilt for being so dualistic. Of cors Eve is far from being a slaver, but sometimes she's willing to play that role, just to please her man, and to keep him in bondage to her. She's the archetype of dishonesty, disguising same by displaying what is called in the culture at force, kindness, warmth, friendliness, altruism, etc. But......Eve has only slight knowledge of her core personality, and most women would even deny they have these tendencies, supported as they r by the patriarchal view on womanhood. And u know what? It often works. Many people seem to be happy with a situation like that. This, to a certain extent, is a good thing. Otherwise our mental hospitals would be flooded even more.
Many men want both of them of cors. Having their pussy, and eat it too, so to speak. They crave for Lilith AND Eve simultaneously. Point is, while Eve occasionally is willing (only out of love and warmth of cors) to 'force' her hubby into pink rubber panties, or to whip the living daylights out of him upon request (quite often for a considerably amount of money too), Lilith couldn't care less, and would never engage in playing a role, and certainly not a requested one. But when confronted with a Lilith-femdom (just to avoid any mixing up with the Eve variant eh?), all the aficionados of degradation, humiliation, dehumanization, ergo, the sissies, dogs, worms, pigs, wannabe slaves, and topping from the bottom ones, will hastily put on their gymnasium shoes and run, call their mom, or have a heart attack.