Sunday, February 26, 2012

The Forgotten One

Years ago someone going by the name of Dough but signing his contributions with “Sam” (yep, things like that happen in Cyberspace) asked me: Aside from stirring things up from time to time, what do you wish to invoke? Is your interaction here in cyberspace merely for your pleasure and entertainment, or do you have a higher agenda?

And i replied: Oh my, i see master Calvin and supreme holy man Peter r striking again! Was i not taught there was higher stuff in life than mere pleasure and entertainment? Was i not shown what happened to Sodom and Gomorrah? Oh yes Father, all that was done to me indeed. And i complied, teeth clenched, resisting to become a sinner, carrying an overload of principles, ultimate truths, and dogmas on my fragile back made from reinforced steel. I did it all. I graduated triple, became a respected citizen, a stronghold of society. But i had a second agenda, not a higher one mind u, but still an agenda. Parallel to all that complying, i was following that inner drive, my femdom drive. And i learned. I learned from the outcasts, the freaks, the hedonists, the whores, the junkies, but also from the crooks, the abusers, the torturers, the generals, the captains of industry, the politicians, the jet-set, and from my slaves. I learned that the preachments of the patriarchs r crap, worthless, and counterproductive to human relations and life. The patriarchs r driven by fear. I'm driven by lust. So indeed i'm in cyberspace (and not only there) to entertain myself. The patriarchs lost their battle with me. No compromising for me. Not anymore. Now they want to be my slave.

Ayesha NostraDomina the ultimate prophetess says: Humans eventually will find out, that they're just another species, roaming the Earth for a while, till they get extinct. Many humans will have traumatic experiences when it becomes clear to them, their soul is nothing more than a particular constellation of molecules atoms and quarks, that love is nothing more than a chemical reaction triggered by electrical impulses, and that religion is nothing more than a hoax to prevent them to get that knowledge in the first place. Some will burst into tears when realizing that femdom has nothing to do with caring, loving, comforting, finding one’s deeper inner self, or some other trivial endeavor. There will be massive psychotic episodes once they will see that their treasured 'domina' is not a substitute for the religion that disappointed them, their mom who punished them for looting the cookie bin, or that banal teacher they adored so much in school, and that femdom is just raw sex, forced by a tyrannical and lustful woman, who wants to have things her way, no matter what.

Awaiting that glorious moment, let’s continue to destroy what we built in the name of renewal, to pollute the Earth with chemicals in the name of progress, to annihilate each other in the name of religion, to go to war in the name of justice, to condone the expression of foul philosophies and miserable ideologies in the name of free speech, to support mediocre and fake voices in the name of human rights, and to vote for imbeciles in the name of democracy.

But there also is that other possibility to kill the time b4 the truth of the human condition will sink in. Yes people, a different tale. A tale not told in the Bible, Qur'an, Torah, political pamphlet, or any other scripture known by the small or larger masses. It is not even known as a myth, a legend, or a story whispered at the campfires of the Romani people. It’s a tale without heroic deeds, without sinister figures, without dark demons or enlightened species, and especially without attempts to project one’s own crap, fear, and silliness, onto other people, selling it as the ultimate truth. In fact, it’s a simple tale, not very long, quite modest too, and not very spectacular either. Well, not in a patriarchal way eh. And u know what? We all, um…..uh uh……almost all…. know this tale. Well, i mean of cors, should/could know this tale. Or should i say, could remember it? Be that as it may, this tale is no secret, it’s out in the open. But……..most fail to see what’s right in front of them (yeah, remember Krishnamurti?). **Smirk on my face, and curling my lips**

So, choose! For now and for ever! No compromise allowed! Either rot in hell or heaven, or let’s dance, and have things my way.

Sunday, February 19, 2012

Last of the chosen ones

To close my Yahoo chapter, here r my last three contributions coming from an era that had its good moments but was murdered in the name of progress. It’s close to a year now that Pulse was lost, and even longer that her sister Yahoo360 was cremated.

Here goes.

And then there was………hypnosis

Yeah, hypnosis came a long way since the times of Mesmer, Braid and Freud. Hmmmmm, as a matter of fact, it made some serious detours too, meandering occasionally through dirty sewers and sleazy alleys, where it was raped, corrupted, and destroyed to no end. No matter the work of Erikson, Kirsch, Hilgard, and others, nowadays almost nothing of its mysterious beauty is left. Sure there r still some dedicated practitioners, and a few driven scientists, but mostly it’s owned now by charlatans, no good gurus, and snobbish self proclaimed dominants who r predating on the frustration of non-daring thrill seekers, selling their crap to moron audiences. “Yes sir, we had a ball. He let that ass walk like a chicken. Yes ma’am, we had a lot of fun. He made that idiot bark like a dog”. And…….to stay a bit closer to home: “Yes Mistress, I’ll be ur money-slave forever”, and more crap like that.

Here in our wondrous virtual world many people claim to be interested in hypnosis. Yeah right. Lmao. Such a bunch of liars. What they’re interested in is either to use the concept as some socially accepted means to con others or to escape from their dull, boring, and frightening daily life, to become a tranced (male) slut to a creature who can only pretend to be a hypno-dominant online, eager to display his or her (?) non-existing powers in a rather fascistic manner. In other words, the weak r meeting the cowards, and the cowards r meeting the weak, playing an illusionary game of d/s, without any commitment or consequence. Of cors all this is fun, fun, fun. And don’t u dare to doubt their honesty, in-depth knowledge, and superb hypnosis skills, as this will offend them disproportionally, if not making them run to the next psychiatric ward for an extra dose of Xanax.

I’m beginning to believe, that whatever great things humans will create, develop, invent, or discover, the majority will always succeed to bring it down, to slaughter it, and make a caricature of it.

Huh? “I’m beginning to believe……..”? Hahaha, that’s a good one, lol. Behold tho, that one has changed. I’m a true believer now! Cross my heart.

Another World

At the time, Rita blogged about Self, metanoia, education, and pedagogy. I found the topic worthy to reach a larger audience. So instead of commenting on her site, i did it on mine, for all to see.

Here it is again.

In my life i learned this:
When the parent or teacher has a rotten personality, and thus is only a clone of what is cultural prescribed to her/him, the kid is better off without them!

In my life i observed this: As long as a child is punished, belittled, and laughed at for its own dreams, thoughts, and actions, it will grow up a clone of its society.
In my life i do this: I support youngsters to follow their instincts, dreams, and passions, without questioning them, without asking them for their reasons and motives, without making them answering to me, and without sanctioning them for any behavior. As a result of that, they r asking me questions instead, about my life, about what makes me tick, about my passions, sorrow, and thoughts, about what i think about their passions, sorrow, and thoughts, and about our interactions. Manipulation, coercion, dishonesty, righteousness, morals, and protocols, have no place in these encounters. It’s simply a meeting of genuine people, trying to understand each other, to be there for each other, and to enjoy each other, laughing, teasing, and showing true feelings about anything.

No leader, no repentance, no correction, no psychotic break down, and no deity, can ever guide people to change the paradigms of their life or to get rid of their vanilla bondage, cos as soon as there is a guide, there’s dependency, and the possibility to escape genuine responsibility.

And now for something completely different. Or is it? What do u think? Is it out of range? Does it not belong here? Or does it? U should know u know. Or don't u, hehehe?

The 2 of us

When i'm with u, we'll have raw and wild sex. We will bite and scratch each other, draw blood, and drink from each other. There will be the smell of sweaty leather, of perspiring bodies, and of dripping abysses. There will be exquisite pain, arousal, and lust. It will be an orgiastic encounter, independent of any cultural influence, and averse to any protocol or pre-arranged scenarios. Just an explosion of passion, greed, possessive power, submission, and original sexual creativity! That’s my style, my way of having it my way. The only way. Does this excite u too? Would u love to submerse in this as well? Could this be more to u than a fantasy? R u ready for this sexual singularity?

Of cors, when things come to a rest a bit later, we could have a long walk, holding hands along the way, having a succulent breakfast or romantic dinner together, and then............start all over again.

Oh, here's a rather tame example. But if u know her, u will agree with me, she's good. Very good i must say. And passionate. And cruel. She knows her whips. She knows how to torture. Not one of the mommy-domme clan. Oh no :)

Saturday, February 11, 2012


"There's something radiating from a domina or a slave. When they meet, it makes them understand each other just by their body language. I often compare the two with a hyperbola, of which the two parts r completely separate, close or far away from the other, and still belong to the same entity."

The above was part of a discussion i had a few years ago with a man from Denmark. One of the better ones i must say, and not one of those who talk a lot online, but never would dare to follow up on their sexual impulses in r/l.

The hyperbola is one way to describe a femdom relationship. Another analogy can be found in quantum mechanics, called entanglement. It’s a beautiful concept, and although it took a long time to scientifically prove its existence, there’s no doubt anymore, it’s truly a part of our world. And coincidence or not, it was in Copenhagen that the pioneers of quantum physics (Heisenberg, Bohr) were working on its interpretation.

In the femdom world entanglement simply means that from the moment a slave interacts with a domina, the bond is there forever, and in such a way that even when they r far apart, any change in one of the partners will have consequences for the other one. That’s why, even when i have dismissed a slave, he/she will never be free from me, my thoughts, my actions, and my will. And to a certain extent, vice versa. But only if she/he is indeed a slave, and not a caricature of same. Of cors it goes without saying that most i sent away belong to the latter.

Mind u tho, contrary to us, in the vanilla world a sexual relationship defined by entanglement is seen as highly objectionable, and can only be damaging to the happiness of a couple (grin).

Both analogies r congruent with what i wrote elsewhere: “In fact, a slave is the mirror of a femdom. Just as mean, cruel, driven, egoistic, sexy, seductive, hungry, elegant, stubborn, moody, beautiful, passionate, unfair, erratic, powerful, humorous, revengeful, poisonous, lovable, and always on the road to go beyond the next horizon. The difference is, they operate from a different dimension.”

The Man from Denmark had a question. Well…….. a few of them.

If the slave is a mirror of the femdom - and I know you are right, egoistic, elegant, sexy.......etc. etc. etc, what keeps the two together in the hyperbola?
The gravity force is clearly seduction, but that is just the mechanics. What is the drive that keeps the hyperboles in place, keeping both of them never to consider anything but themselves and yet keep getting attracted to the other?

Could it be loyalty? Both must carry the ability to "love intensely but rarely?" - It must be so - Loyalty, l am of course thinking about loyalty in spirit and not in flesh, is the only way a relationship can be established and keep the two together........
It would seem a contradiction that two selfish people can be loyal to each other. But, hopefully not (yes, I know your concept of hope... ;-)....... such a loyalty must definitely be a rarity!!!
So yes – true feminine femdom is rare. Just consider, if some women have the ability, then even fewer men carry the trade to "love intensely but rarely". So maybe men of the right mold are the limit for feminine femdom, and not the women.

Do you agree – loyalty is essential?

Now isn’t that a handful of assumptions, or what? “Love intensely but rarely?” Yeah right! “The gravity force is clearly seduction”? Mmmmm, maybe partly. “That two selfish people…..” Selfish? Come on. Seriously? How so?

Anyway, the main thing was loyalty, to which i wrote:

Loyalty? Nice that. Especially when in need to fight vanillas. Can even strengthen the bond, giving warm feelings and joy. But essential? Nah, not really. What keeps them together is simply the will of the domina, her passion to own the powerful ones, her desire to keep a slave or not. It is a mistake, to think that vanilla values could be of major importance in the world of ffd. Like i said many times b4, a slave has no voice here, no vote, and no rights. But………he/she is free, and encouraged, to seduce me to change my mind, and to behave differently, lol.

The Man from Denmark:

I don't understand what loyalty has to do with vanilla???
Loyalty is in my book one of the true values in life. If you think about loyalty in the sense of a connection bond between two people - an unspoken force but which both understand is essential - what else would make you keep a slave? What else would drive the slave to throw him/herself at your feet over and over again? Of cause there is greed and seduction, but as you pointed out the forces in the hyperbola are strong and can easily diverge...... If there were no loyalty how could there be "intense but rare love"?

Oh my, this man was still struggling with his “intense but rare love”. Rather incoherently too. And then this “throw him/herself at your feet” thingy? Vanilla, vanilla, vanilla!

And i explained to him:

As a business women, one day, someone handed to me a few books authored by Fred Reicheld, a man known for his writings on loyalty. Some even call him the Guru of Loyalty. Loyalty is for him, “the willingness to make an investment or personal sacrifice to strengthen a relationship.” Now how vanilla is that eh? Quite useful tho. It really helped me a lot to brainwash, indoctrinate, and manipulate employees, CEO’s, and business partners. I found it even useful when it came to binding rich clients to me. I mean of cors, in a more vanilla way (grin).

This was just an example. There r zillions of people, who made it their quest, to explain to us what loyalty was, is, should be, has to be, will be, etc. Like with so many intangible concepts, it’s completely eroded nowadays, as everybody, including u, has his/her own opinion, definition, and/or version. What’s written in ur book, may be blasphemy in someone else’s scripture, etc. Isn’t that the vanilla way to do things?

Lao Tse once wrote:

"When people lost sight of the way to live
Came codes of love and honesty,
Learning came, charity came,
Hypocrisy took charge;
When differences weakened family ties
Came benevolent fathers and dutiful sons;
And when lands were disrupted and misgoverned
Came ministers commended as loyal.”

Now THAT’s what i can relate to. His words come close to my own knowledge, ideas, and feelings regarding this concept. So no loyalty crap in my house! I only keep/allow a slave around me, as long as he/she is turning me on, is enriching my life, is keeping me on my toes (yeah yeah, even when not parading in 6” heels), is fun to be with, and has a body to die for. But never cos i have some kind of obligation to him/her, or whatever. Doesn’t mean i couldn’t be there for him/her when needed, but loyalty would never be the driving force for that. When it comes right down to it, loyalty is crippling passion between people, like any artificial tool, which was created to replace the unique, intimate, and unspoken force (ur words lol) between two humans. It’s just another example of vanillas having the need to always have something outside themselves to cling to, and to rule/govern their life.

".....what else would drive the slave to throw him/herself at your feet over and over again?" Well, well, well, lmao! Would.....not being able to leave me without my consent, not having another choice, unable to imagine any other owner, and a quenchless thirst for more of my delicious cruelty and poisonous love, being acceptable reasons for u?

Due to lessons, taught by false prophets, politicians, pastors, and pathological shrinks, it became very common in the vanilla world, in order to avoid guilt and shame, to sublimate, and even replace, primal lust, basic emotions, and the longing for raw sex, by so called higher drives like loyalty. But not here, not in That Place, and not in the Labyrinth. Here we acknowledge and cherish the powers coming from our limbic system, as we recognize and celebrate those coming from our neo-cortex as well. Here these powers r not opposites, or in contradiction with each other. They r essential ingredients, making our hyperbola even more exciting than she already was in her rudimentary form.

Add to this now the idea of entanglement, and we will soon be crossing yet another horizon in the world of feminine femdom, leaving loyalty and his vanilla brethren far behind in the kindergarten of sex.