Tuesday, January 1, 2013

Scars from Hunger



There was this hunger
A yearning for love
To belong unconditionally
To unite free spirits in bondage
Dancing through life as one
Endlessly renewing

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When daybreak came
The eternal bond was broken
Dreams scattered all over the place
Scarring me and my offspring
Imploding agony
Remnants from hunger



 
There was this hunger
A longing for silence
To repose in quietness
To descend an abyss so deep
No sound could ever reach
Slumbering awake

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When daybreak came
Unbearable noise
Invaded my sanctum
Scarring Zion
Etching the sky above
Remnants from hunger 



 
There was this hunger
A craving for power
To annihilate corruption
To conquer mistrust and hate
Establishing peace
Resting in enemy’s arms

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When daybreak came
Freedom fighters entered
Carrying promises and knives
Scarring children maliciously
Ripping the quest apart
Remnants from hunger



 
There was this hunger
A thirst for revenge
To retaliate ferociously
To destroy many lives
For that one life destroyed
The love of my life and my life

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When daybreak came
The dead stopped breathing
Broken lives everywhere
Scarring all
Avenging sadness
Remnants from hunger

My scars
Come from infected wounds
Stinking injuries
Closing hermetically
Never to heal, or to be erased
Remnants from hunger


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There was this hunger
A hunger to enslave women and men
A hunger to own males and females
A hunger to brand their flesh with my name
A hunger to engrave my will on their soul
A hunger to share our scars
A hunger only to be stilled partially
A hunger to be devoured by
A hunger leaving no scars
But scars from lust




Welcome my famine
Stay with me forever
Stand by me eternally
The ones owned by me
As well as my equals





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    1. Ah yes those French and their French speaking affiliates, a.k.a. right wing snobs, always busy to rise up from the sewers in an attempt to elevate their feelings of superiority to at least the level of les gros beaufs.

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  2. There we are, our Juanita Banana pours here another serving of her poetry. As Jacques Prevert would say:

    l'amiral
    la rime a quoi
    la rime a rien

    La cuvee 2013 de votre poesie reste au niveau de celle de 2012: du vent, just a lot of hot air...

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    1. There we are indeed. Come to think of it though, we were there already for a long time. But like Tolkien's Gollum, you needed to try sweet talking first for a while. In the end though, you couldn't hold back any longer and simply had to come out of the woods to show your true colors, which were, as i indicated several times before already, of a rather transparent kind and hardly anonymous from the get go.

      Trying to insult, offend, and slander me, was always the final modus operandi and last resort of people who failed to get through to me, and/or, from solely having been in virtual contact with me, had to admit that they never would have the courage to still their hunger the way I do.

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    2. I remember this patriarchal fathead from yahoo, two-three years ago. When he started talking about Nicaragua, I recognized him. Baudelaire and Verlaine didn't have the opportunity to hear from him, but you are lucky enough to be his contemporary :-|

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    3. This is incredible (again)! I was just thinking about you and your whereabouts, and.....pooffff, there was your comment!

      That patriarchal fathead you mentioned above, told me he can't remember his screen name from that time, hehehe.

      Sure i'm the lucky one. I always am. But mind you, this time not because Monsieur Poésie himself entered the arena, but because you showed up ;)

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    4. Um.....I see you haven't moved much, lol. Still, 13 degrees C is way better than the current -17 C in your old place, hehehe.

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    5. Brrr! ... hehe, yes, it's true that I choose some bizarre places to spend my time. I had thought that by now I would be sending you words from more interesting locations, but I ended up staying here much longer than I thought I would.

      But I manage to keep some passion and hunger alive, even in the middle of the lame bourgeoisie that fills up the burgs I live in. Whether daily semi-pasteurization is better for the body than longer periods of deep freezing, remains to be seen :)

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    6. Yeah, can you imagine? You are so much better company than that alleged freedom fighter (you called him a patriarchal fathead) who got himself so entangled in his own crap, that he feels he can’t leave this place and would only lose face (or ass), should he give in to his manly instincts to take a hike into oblivion, or some other cozy place.

      Seriously though, I miss your great prose, analytical analyses regarding world politics, and biting humor :)

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    7. Caramba! Now you have seduced me to send you an email that will enrichen your life for as long as you live and beyond. Let me get right on to the task, and you will have it before bedtime, whenever that is.

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    8. Oh, you're probably quite relaxed, surfing the web, since you know that I will most likely deliver high quality. Or quantity.

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    9. I'm seven hours ahead of you now, and by far not as relaxed as when I'm in That Place!

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    10. Before bedtime! And you will sleep as sound as... Sleeping Beauty, after receiving what I just sent you.

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    11. "Just"? You mean 20 minutes ago? I replied to that already, hehehe.

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  3. Well chosen wishes to start 2013 with :)... Happy new year Lady Ayesha.

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    1. Let there be more peace in your country this year my friend.

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  4. Well, if you insult me privately and bilaterally, I do not have any choice. You know quite well who I am, reason why I see no reason why you should spill your gobbledegook here, as it is of no interest whatsoever to other folks.
    Iditse v baniu

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    1. ".....I do not have any choice."? What a lame excuse. One of your best worst ones. But it doesn't matter. Go on, continue with what you seem to do best, and show people what kind of personality is really lurking behind all the flattery you so generously spread around as long as you think things are going your way.

      See? There you are wrong again. Many people are interested in my gobbledegook. Of course they shouldn't, but they are. Some even asked me (privately eh) if I wouldn't be willing to share our private exchanges here publicly, for all to enjoy.

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  5. When I called this gobbledegook, I was being polite. Pero en realidad quería decir: "Dejese de pendejadas..."

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    1. Of course it is, as foul language covers your personality much better.

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  6. Sind Sie sicher, dass Sie alle Tassen im Schrank haben ?

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    1. Na du oller Nieselpriem, bist wohl mit de Muffe jepuffat, oda wat? Azeehl ma keene Bolln!

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  7. What a beautiful piece of literature ! It sounds like a badly integrated Turk living in Köln and mumbling insults at a German guy when going out of the Mosque. Would you kindly transtlate, so that everybody here could fully understand your stylish writing ?

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    1. Yet another fine example of your deplorable personality.

      Your next xenophobic comment will be deleted.

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  8. Now you have got me trembling with fear... Brrrrrr...
    I was not attacking the Turks, which are mostly fine people and with whom I relate quite easily. Even more, I think that Turkey should become member of the EU, but your good friend and soul-mate Sarkozy was up in arms against it, for obvious reasons which you surely grasp.
    Satisfied, Madame la Censure ?

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  9. The greatest poets are those with memories so great that they extend beyond their strongest experiences to their minutest observations of people and things far outside their own self-centeredness.

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    1. Indeed.... Baudelaire, Rimbaud, Prévert, on the French side. Also Pablo Neruda...

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    2. Also Verlaine !

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    3. A rather cliché quote. And a silly one at that. But a quote nevertheless. Can't you come up with something from yourself? Something original? Something vibrant? Something other vanillas would consider great? Something that would linger on for ages in the minds of the less gifted, the less great? Something other great morons eagerly would search for and happily quote? Of course you should have mentioned the great author who created this nonsense too, and not have tried to make us believe this great crap came from you, yourself, you the man! Now you look bit self-centered eh? Ah well, it fits your great personality.

      "I think continually of those who were truly great." (Stephen Spender) See? That’s how it should be done. Learn from it! Hmmmm, he certainly wasn't thinking about you and the likes of you, when he wrote that boring poem. Or was he? Could be eh? Why? Sir Stephen seems to have had a thing, if not a fetish, for all that he considered great. Which in my view is rather small. But not small enough to keep Ronald the Great from quoting same. So it must have had some impact on the good old Leader of the World, eh? Yes, it must have been so. Why else would a brainwashed righty be quoting a disillusioned lefty? Ah well, you fit right in. Brethren in arms so to speak. Well.....um.....lots of "poems", movies, and quotes, but not so many arms.

      It’s all good though. People often are limited when it comes to backing up their greatness. It’s in their vanilla genes to act like that(i.e. fishermen in a bar or intellectuals during a revolution), you know? Of course you know! They are your allies. You are one of them.

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  10. For all your steady anathema against vanilla, you can consider yourself very lucky that at some point, years ago, a male and a female had a vanilla encounter and that as a result, you are now alive and spilling all your wisdom on this blog.

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    1. Yes, steering clear of the core of my comments is your usual modus operandi. But even then you are making a mess. Like for instance coming up with "anathema" and "vanilla", without having a clue what you are talking about. Well, maybe you know a little bit about the first one, as you're still fearing the divine. But "vanilla"? Nah, you're completely in the dark about that one. And to think you yourself are vanilla to the core. Amazing that.

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    2. I have long realised that you have a one-track mind and that you loathe any argument deviating from the narrow path which you have delimited. But it eventually boils down to this: vous ressassez sans cesse la même antienne à propos de "vanilla". It becomes somehow tiresome. Could broaden the scope of the debate ? Labelling systematically your sparring-partners as "vanilla" is a very weak argument.

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    3. Broaden the scope of the debate? You mean with launching stuff like you sent me privately? For instance, and I quote: "I wonder how you will look in 20 years. Probably fat, with a latino derriere thriving on gringo cuisine."? Yeah, that's quite uplifting, and so far away from my narrow path too. That's a super highway!

      You are not my sparring-partner.

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    4. As they say in soccer, you are just kicking the ball in corner, right now.
      As far as being sparring-partners, you are right, we are not. Just because you still have a lot to learn to be on level, about life, about society and about yourself. But it might take a long time before you realise it. Perhaps by then, my prediction will have turned out to be true, in 20 years.

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    5. Yawn.

      Soccer? Lots of stupid stuff going there. And so illogical too eh? Ever stood still by the silliness of running our ass off to catch the ball, and then, after finally having gotten it in your possession, immediately looking for a chance to kick it (in corner or not) away again? And after that......to start the whole process all over again?

      Time to start up your illustrious debate, partner. I mean with the ones on your level of course.

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    6. All right, let us start a debate about your Weltanschauung, that is, beyond that boring debate about what is vanilla and what is not. Do you consider yourself as progressive, conservative, anarchist or just apolitical ? As you surely know, it you do not care about Politics, Politics will take care of you. And then you will not necessarily enjoy the end-result, as many people on this planet are experiencing.

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    7. You are not on my level, remember?

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    8. Of course I do remember, but you can still strive to come up to my level. As a first step you might stop bragging like a spoilt teenager. And then reply in an honest manner to my very simple question concerning your political attitude, if you are able to grasp the difference between these four options.

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    9. B...bu....but Grandpoa, you mostly are dwelling in the smelly sewers, picking your nose and adoring your own waste. So how can you expect me, a delicate flower used to fresh air, clean water, and sexy gardeners, to come down now to your level Grandpoa, to join you, and participate in a debate that wasn't meant for me in the first place? Nah, I rather stay down to earth, far from your stinking paradise. Can you forgive me Grandpoa? Tell you what. To ease your pain, I'll repeat what Marilyn did years ago, so you can stare at my beautiful ass from below. To make it all a real treat for you and your company, I’ll put in a mega bonus, be extra naughty, and will drop some of my delicious caviar during that event. But only if you promise to catch it with your mouth and share with the other scholars down there? Deal? You sure? I love you Grandpoa! You are the greatest.

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    10. Thanks for finally showing your real face: an ass

      And your real mouth: an asshole

      As for your brain: just a mass of bowels filled with shit !

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    11. Mission impossible completed. You managed to sink yourself deeper than the current laws of physics would allow you to sink. A m a z i n g !

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    12. Impossible n'est pas français !

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    13. As he lived in Switzerland, Albert Einstein once wrote: "Two things are infinite: the universe and human stupidity, and I am not sure about the universe".
      You are an steadily proving that Einstein was right, reason why I have just written a small note in the guest book of Berne's Einstein Museum.

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  11. A new way of thinking has become the necessary condition for responsible living and acting. If we maintain obsolete values and beliefs, a fragmented consciousness and self-centered spirit, we will continue to hold onto outdated goals and behaviors.

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    1. Quoting again eh? The Dalai Lama will be proud of you. Such a wise man he is. Now go and at least practice what he said, as you certainly need to lose a few outdated goals and behaviors.

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  12. The focus here has to do with communication – the kind of communication that leaves one bewildered, frustrated and/or shut-out; like abuse, it can leave one feeling like they are constantly wrong or misunderstood and doubting their own reality. It can leave one feeling drained of energy trying to understand why their partner appears to make no effort to understand a communication problem that is happening within the relationship.

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    1. I’d never heard of Kim Hanley (the one from whom you stole your latest quote), so I thought: "Hey, let me give her (and you) a chance, let me leave my self-centered universe for what it is, gracefully descend to the vanilla world, filled with empathy, good intentions, and positive expectations, open up my mind for the usual crap, dwell there for a while (not too long eh?), and read what this powerhouse femme, member of the powerful mental health providers and vanilla relationships experts, has to say.

      Bummer! Grrrrrr, I give up! By Lilith’s beautiful smelling farts, how boring can one be? Well, she can. I can forgive her though, as she probably has not a clue about femdom, no idea about self-centeredness in that far away world where relationships are not defined by abusiveness or any other ugly sweet product of HER world (ahem, that’s the vanilla world eh?). But it speaks volumes that you had to plagiarize this valued examiner of Examiner.com.

      Um.....did you know that this fine product of the commercially tinted media world (that’s Examiner.com eh? Just to avoid any misunderstanding, and other foul pollution of the sacred communication processes eh?), has a great policy when it comes to accuracy of its contents? No? Well, this is what its executive editor said, and I quote: *** the Examiner has "a less-strict standard for accuracy and attribution in stories that appear on the Web" than for publications in print*** (Jeeez, that’s actually a double quote). Now isn’t that something? Isn’t that truly remarkable? Or is it simply just more of the same? Yes, I think it is. But you had to draw from that! Speaks volumes too, hehehe.

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  13. Occasionally people can have a dangerous vice if you like, a e. More than pride, which supposedly the number one of the cardinal sins - is self pity. Self pity is the worst idiotic emotion anyone can have. And the most destructive. It is, to slightly paraphrase what Wilde said about hatred, and I think actually hatred's a subset of self pity and not the other way around - ' It destroys everything around it, except itself '.

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    1. Digesting so much wisdom kept you awake eh? But ok, you are making progress. Although, what you uploaded here would have made more sense would you have left the first part of the original in tact. So for all our good readers here to get the full flavor of it, I suggest to replace 'Occasionally people can have a dangerous vice if you like, a e.' with "Certainly the most destructive vice if you like, that a person can have." (Not mine eh? It all came from Stephen Fry's grey matter.)

      FYI: Next time you upload a quote (tampered with or not) without mentioning its author, it will be deleted.

      Now pulleeeezzzz, don't feel victimized, and stop thinking you're not good enough!


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  14. People are idiots man kind is becoming idiots and alas, I have never seen one person to go such extreme to prove them self right against a complete stranger as of matter of fact. In my mind you should have nothing to prove to a complete stranger yet you go out of your way to be little them. People you may know some you may not the articles that person copied or pasted or even tampered with and yet you went out of your way to prove them wrong. Hey in my opinion bravo self centeredness wins but to tell you the truth also in my mind your no better than so called politicians these days. When someone tries to stand up against they do whatever means necessary to crush them and make sure they come out on top. Somebody like Assad would be proud of you. Hey I am proud you, heck if you want to crush this opinion go ahead. Through all the worlds stupidity self centerness is growing all about that one person and that one person alone. The true makings of millions of dictators or the true making of destruction of their own self's. I am probably no match for your ego on here so I will bow out of this race now before I am degraded as a human being to. Like the ones before me have not just be warned though egos do eventually meet thier match in the long run Hitler did.

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    1. Damn, and to think there are people complaining about MY English!

      Indeed, no way you could match my ego. And definitely not MyEgo, hehehe.

      Um.....you are not a complete stranger to me ;)

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    2. You know, talking about your inflated ego, I have just realised that you are the female equivalent of Klaus Kinski !

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    3. Inflated? What a nice compliment! You seem to belong to that special elite not suffering from a deflated ego, realizing the popular myth that an inflated ego is bad, bad, bad, and to blame for all kinds of evil, is just that, a myth.

      Here, as a bonus for your empathic wisdom, I quote Bruce Crampton: "Life is a compromise of what your ego wants to do, what experience tells you to do, and what your nerves let you do."

      Now, to put this in the right perspective, my ego wants a lot, actually everything I set my mind on. Then, my experiences are over the top, and my nerves are like surgical steel as well as titanium. Add to that, as you already know, I would never compromise, and there you have it. A super duper inflated ego. An ego envied by Gods and Goddesses alike.

      Oh, and here's what John Underwood said about Bruce Crampton: "Some say Bruce Crampton is cruel, officious and humorless, others, that he is warm, kind and helpful. Everyone agrees, however, that out on the course he has monstrous talent". See? That's how it is with me. Some (well...um....most)can't stand me, would happily send me to the gallows, burn me at the steak, stone me, while others (well...um...a few) adore me, want to be my slave, and can't live without me. Everyone agrees however, that as a femdom I have no equal. I’m a sexual monster with a tremendous talent to bring out the primal desires of my slaves to the surface, act on them, and inflate same to unknown proportions.

      Heh? Yes, I know what you’re thinking right now, hehehe

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    4. I prefer the philosophy of Sartre:
      - you are not what you think you are
      - you are not what the people think you are
      - you are what you do
      As simple as that. Which means that you are free, you can construct yourself. This is existentialism. It also involves responsability towards others, which requests a positive attitude, sorely lacking on this blog. Ayesha, please try and read again "La nausée" (or "Le mur"). It will do you a lot of good. It's an easy text, much easier than "L'Etre et le néant". And much more interesting than those authors which you are quoting. At least, Sartre's impact has been and remains a lot larger. A lot can be built on the basis of his philosophy.

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    5. “you are what you do”? Not bad at all. Now look at you, and look at what you did.

      Quite recently you told me that we had met a couple of years ago, and also that, and I quote from your email of December 29, 2012: "About that previous contact with you I just renembered your name and it rang a bell but I do not remember the name I used."

      Ah, you don’t remember eh? But do you perhaps remember the name you used when responding to a question asked by a reader regarding the contents of an article published by Reuters, November 17, 2012, today exactly two months ago, and a little over a month when you said, "I do not remember the name"? You do? Splendid! It’s the same, oh Warrior of Marx, the same of which you said, "I do not remember".

      Got it? Yes, that’s what you did. And that’s who you are.

      “you are not what the people think you are”? Maybe. But *I* know who you are. And not only because I know what you did, hehehe.

      http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1LyoQS0EvcE

      Btw, it was May 2010 when you, among other things, came up with that same Sartre story.



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    6. Well, your reminder shows that I follow a constant line. Now if you would kindly leave aside all this "jarabe de pico", I would be interested - and perhaps other folks here too - in knowing what you are doing, other than passing judgment on other people. Vd cree ser la mama de los pollitos ?
      Fine, you agree that one is what one does,but now would you tell us concretely something about your Weltanschauung ? I mean by this, the vision guiding your actions, your aims. And please, do not serve us another portion of "jarabe" or as my old friend Magnus von Braun, the brother of Wernher, used to say, "no more hot air,please !". Just get down to earth and express yourself clearly.

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    7. Nah, the other folks know all that already. It’s only you who stayed in the dark. Stay there. It’s a great place for you. In there nobody will see that your "constant line" is actually made up of several contradicting ones, which is the usual MO of opportunists, trimming their sails according to the wind.
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      Psst *other folks*, for the next part of my comment you need to know that one of the names this anonymous guy is using is Lobojack. No, that’s not the one I was referring to in my previous one. That one was Humble59. Not really important for you to know, but just to keep things accurate, eh?

      Lobojack in the Afterlife.

      Lobojack: Mommy, Mommy, Ayesha won’t tell me her Weltanschauung, Mommy!
      Lady Anonymous: My child, don’t bother me with your mortal nonsense.
      Lobojack : But Mommy I want to knowwwww (angrily stamping his feet)
      Lady Anonymous: Oh shit, and what should I do?
      Lobojack: Help me Mommy, you are a woman, force her to tell me, Mommy.
      Lady Anonymous: Are you crazy? Women like Ayesha will never get serious with doormats like you.
      Lobojack: I’m not a doormat, Mommy, I’m a fiery revolutionary, siding with the Sandinistas and Charly deGaulle!
      Lady Anonymous: Yeah, yeah Jacky, you told me that already too many times. Makes me sleepy.
      Lobojack (crying now): I hate you Mommy. You never believed me. You always said I was a liar.
      Lady Anonymous: That’s right kiddo, you are. And you always were trying to blame others for your failures too. And you really should stop projecting your disturbing personality traits onto fine women like Ayesha. Now go and read Sartre again. Seems you’ve missed le Néant!
      Lobo jack: Beeeeeeh, weeeeehhhhh, blaaaaaahhhhhh!!!!
      Lady Anonymous: Oh, and before I forget. Ayesha told me, the next time you come up with that silly question, she will delete it and throw it into the Styx for Cerberus to vomit on.

      After this ordeal, poor Jacky, his eyes filled with tears and his panties soiled, tried to find solace by his heroes, the deceased freedom fighters from all over the world, the Braun brothers, and the twins Charles & Marx. But they laughed at him and, like the bunch of choir boys they had become in the Afterlife, sang, directed by a woman: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xYuXcU9OkCQ

      Meanwhile, Klaus was laughing his ass off.

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    8. OMG ! An other huge portion of hot air. So large that it could fill a fire-balloon or even, with some practice, a modern version of the Hindenburg. In view of the present grounding of all Dreamliners, I think that there is a market potential worth exploring.

      Unlike you I do not store our bilateral exchanges, having no KGB or Gestapo mind. It is unnecessary because I am consistent in my statements over time. In my case what you see is what you get. It is the plain truth in all cases and I could substantiate it any time.

      By the way you may not be surprised that I had a scheduled meeting with Depardieu (this great French actor who now has a Russian passport) during my recent stay in Central Asia, where he has an advertising contract with the Eurasian Bank. I mentionned you and showed him your blog. He could not stop scoffing.

      I wonder whether he will become one of your followers, on top of those who have seen my post in the guest book of the Einstein Haus.

      I hope that you will appreciate the pains I take to increase your following, but I do not expect you to thank me for it. You deserve it, because your mind is a beacon shining over the rest of mankind - and womankind !

      Any way, after my post on the

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    9. The mega-opportunist Wernher von Braun and his brother Magnus!?! And now we hear about an actor on an advertising contract, hahaha! Yes, subservient people don't have to be without a führer for long, they will always find new masters to serve.

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    10. Bravo Sir Fox! You really nailed that one. On the head and between the legs. Concise and accurate. I couldn't have done any better myself.

      I only will add this:

      "In my case what you see is what you get." Oohh? Really? Is that right? Hmmmm, lemme check Ayesha’s Archive. Ah, here it is: ".... my experiences and yearnings outside the vanilla world are kept under a tight lid". Now how about that eh? Did your famous French buddy too get what he saw?
      Well, um.....of course in a way you still could be right in case you didn’t have any experiences outside the vanilla world. Yes, that must be it!

      And this:

      "Any way, after my post on the" Huh? Kb gave up? Speechless? A pro-domme forbid you to go on? Richard entered the room and caught you while yearning for me? Maybe you were fed up with your own drivel? You had to go urgently to the crapper? Still there perhaps?

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    11. Yawn...
      Now you need Sir Fox to give some support to the crumbling edifice of your intellectual reasoning !
      The facts remain that (1) without Wernher, the U.S. would have only arrived on the moon years after the Soviet Union, just to find the first kolkhose there, that (2) Depardieu is one the greatest actors alive (far superior to your Dustbin Hoffman) and that we had a fascinating discussion with Tolokonikov, (Sabatshe Sertse i.e. The Heart of the Dog), and finally that (3) la fulana Ayesha is presently a great comical success at the Einstein Haus.

      Pas de réaction de la dame sur ce dernier point, je lui ai apparemmment cloué le bec...

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    12. That's all very interesting little man, and of immense importance to the world at large. Especially your #2 must have been a mind boggling event.

      But your 1,2, and 3, are NOTHING when compared to the 3 below! NOTHING AT ALL.

      http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SecYu-V6OZ0

      http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9kv_qonIsgo

      http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cLGa08jTqrM

      But you wouldn't understand :(

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    13. yawn
      yaaaawn
      YAAAAAWN

      zzzzz
      zzzzzzz
      ZZZZZZZZZ

      snore
      snooooooore
      SNOOOOOOOORE

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  15. No I think she is the equivalent of the american president and bloated ego. LOL

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    1. Just look at Kinski through Google and see how he treats people, left and right, insults journalists and marches away from the scheduled interview. You will understand what I mean.

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    2. I propose that we start to collect money on the Web, for the purpose of erecting a monument dedicated to this beacon of mankind, Ayesha. What do you think ?

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    3. Ah, you need other people to get that from the ground? You must be a poor person, an individual without $$$$$, a beggar without any means. Hmmm, maybe just suffering from a severe case of miserliness.

      But no worries. You don't need to spend a dime. It already exists.

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  16. Post scriptum
    About Depardieu, see your mailbox. I sent you proof bilaterally.

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    1. I know, i know, people like you need to suck up to bourgeois celebrities, and want all people to know about it too. But why would you want to prove to me that you were allowed to watch them meet up with other bourgeois powerhouses, shake their hand, share a hot dog with them, or being ordered to carry their shit to their hotel room?

      That was proof u sent me? Hahahahaha.

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  17. About you:
    "Dominant female, promoting feminine femdom, as opposed to trendy and recreational femdom. My slaves r (sic) powerful, challenging, lustful,and hungry for my whip. Together we ridicule fascists, quasi-femdoms, and boy scouts".

    Wow ! I do not know, but somehow you remind me of the Captain in the "Katzenjammer Kids", threatening to discipline those naughty kids.

    Now you have got me filled with fear, because you are sure that I am a fascist, a boy-scout and that I am addicted to quasi-femdom, therefore adding insult to injury. When I imagine what fate would be mine if I ever fell under your power, I am trembling uncontrollably.

    Honestly, in the field of humour, you are unbeatable, even if it is not voluntary. Your blog seriously rivals these Katzenjammer Kids cartoons.

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  18. Nah, you are just a harmless old man, trying to make himself visible. I felt for you, and allowed you to do that on my site.

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    1. Well, if you ever ban me from your site, I shall take it as a signal that you are waiving the white flag of surrender, having run out of valid arguments.

      It seems to me that you are increasingly proving that Newton's Law of Gravity also applies to your intellectual level.

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    2. Ban you from my site? Are you crazy? I could never bring myself to do such a nasty thing to a vulnerable and damaged man like you. And besides, who would look after you if I would abandon you? Who would take care of you then?

      When I was in my teens, among other things, i picked up signals from boys who dreamed of holding my hand, walk with me, kiss me, but were too much of a coward, too insecure, and too afraid of my dominance, to act on that. So instead, they began to slander me, to tell lies about me, and to deny they were under my spell. You are like that Jacques. You never dared to come out in the open, and be the unconditional slave to a woman. You can only babble and brag about it on sites like Femdom Artists, and on one of your profiles. Due to my early experiences I can easily pick up these signals Jacques. You can't help yourself. You can’t control your impulses. I know you need me. If I would ban you, you would feel completely lost. So no, I’ll let you continue vomiting your disgusting filth, to blow off your poisoned steam, send me silly pictures, and to make a fool out of yourself.

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  19. You hate fascists but at the same time you support such sabre-rattlers as Netanyau and Sarkozy. Is this not a harbinger of incipient schizophrenia ? Psychiatric research shows that it generally starts after being 25 years old.

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    1. I asked around, and all voted for you. You are the unquestionable and absolute champion of meaningless foul language, calling names, and derogatory comments in the super heavyweight division of mental dwarfs. Little do they know. Even when it comes to little men like you, I saw worse. The best I could do is nominating you for the title of Promising Beginner. Still, the garbage bin here is full. So the next time you come up with your usual filth, it will be deleted and thrown back at you.

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    2. Oh no! Now Gerardo Depardieu will be cut off from reading his friend Humble59's contributions to mankind!

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    3. Yes, truly a shame, isn’t it?

      Note: Within the hour after I told him to back off, the humbled one sent a total of seven messages (privately and to this blog), although he said after I deleted his first one: "......I have more interesting things to do than wasting my time on your blog", hehehe.

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    4. People like that know nothing about wasting time. Some of the best time I have ever wasted, has been on your blogs ;)

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    5. The man is a brag without content. He's an example of Adorno's authoritarian personality, mainly characterized by ego weakness. To (mentally) survive, he needs a "strong" leader, but at the same time can't stand himself for having that need. In my case this means, that he can't stay away from me, feels attracted to me, but since he found out I oppose his lame ideas, silly philosophies, and bourgeois mentality, he found a "valid" reason to silence that need and began attacking me. But......as that need is a primal one, he's still trying to stay in contact with me in "Femdom Artists", lol.

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    6. Ah yes, he likes FA better than Ayesha's Saudade, because the man behind that site is a "fine and creative person"...

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    7. I once compared this Lobojack with Gollum, but he's worse. While I could still have some sympathy for Tolkien's creature, reading LJ's attempt to stay in contact with me on FA, I think he's simply a hypocritical little man trying to find back his fragile balance, and to suck up to Richard (owner of that blog), now his lowly bourgeois nature was exposed by me. And he must have been one who was once welcomed by the Sandinistas and other fighters, as one of their own? Lmfao! Psaw!

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    8. Nah, Jackie Wolf isn't greeted as a friend or companion anywhere in the world. He's an obedient civil servant who goes where the Ministry (sic) sends him. And he likes to have sex with women who have had sex with political leaders. Sounds like a Carmenica Diaz story.

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    9. And he's as resentful as a kid kicked out of the candy store, lol.

      Here's what he sent me privately today. Um.....btw........he's calling you names now as well, hehehe.

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      "I see that this Baboso Neves is the only follower hurrying up to support you on your blog. I doubt that he really exists and do suspect that you write his messages, just as the editor of LA PLUME used to do in the old days, to stir up interest and pretend to have traffic..
      I also notice that your following remains steady at 160, which does not speak for success. By the way I have tried unsuccessfully to remove my profile from your blog. You may delete me, as I have no intention to ever post again there. So your diatribes against me (or those of Baboso Neves) are just wasted shots into emptiness.
      And finally I noted that you also bash on the head other Anonymous ones, which demonstrates your growing schizophrenia. You clearly need to visit a psychiatrist."

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      Great huh? Yes, he likes to dish it out, to use awfully foul language, to call people names, but in return can't take it when served the tiniest dose of his own medicine. Especially not when, as it was in this case, he’s outdone by his opponent. And to think I was just warming up :)

      People like him are always trying to turn things around, and to defame others, when things are not going their way. He needs a scapegoat to project his measly personality traits on, to blame for his own failures, and he will lie and do anything to safe face. And that’s what happened here. As well as it once happened in my guestbook of YahooPulse in May 2010, when he used Humble 59 (still does) as his screen name.

      Will he pop up under yet a different name sometime, trying to harass and offend me again? You can bet your hungry private parts on it ;)

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    10. And there it is already. Now he's posing as François Vermeille, using the alias of that deceased pianist for his name now, i.e. Onésime Grosbois. And to think he once told me that he has (and I quote) ".....no great talent with instruments." Yeah, lacking the necessary talent, skills, and celebrity status himself, he needs to steal some from a real one. To feel good eh?

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    11. So now we can enjoy ourselves shooting the deceased pianist, instead of wasting our shots into emptiness..?

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    12. Yes, life is hard (sigh).

      But then again, it's a bitch too eh?

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    13. Mmmmmm, he's writing to me privately in French now, challenging me to translate his trash and publish it here. Just another desperate attempt to bypass his vows to NEVER comment in here, and yet get his crap published on my site. Like I told you, he just can't let go. The spell is way too powerful for that |:

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    14. No need to translate. Just forward the email to the Eurasian Bank, so Gerard Depardieu can keep himself updated.

      And put the Einstein museums on alert! The awesome thinker H59 is rumoured to be making a European guestbook-signing tour in the near future. The continent is holding its breath.

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    15. He can't stop writing me. Twice today. I'm beginning to believe this is what really arouses him: To be ridiculed.

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    16. Correction: He just dropped off his third contribution, confirming my thoughts.

      And....um....he thanked me too, saying he's enjoying all this to the fullest. Can you believe it?

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    18. "this is better than any soap opera I have seen/read in YEARS, lol.
      I am not surprised he thanked you. It has been pretty obvious that he is enjoying all this way too much."
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      That's the comment which was removed by my old friend the lawyer from Germany.
      Can't let stuff like that happen, so I put it back :)

      Btw Tina, are you still with your man?

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    19. I received an email notification that a lawyer had commented on the "Scars from Hunger"-blog, and I thought caramba, is it Tina who has come to join in?! But the comment was gone by the time I came here :-(

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    20. Yes, and then you felt relieved, and were jumping for joy, once you realized I had uploaded her valued contribution again ;)

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    21. Of course! But when she comments, deletes, and disappears like this, I get the feeling that we're not gonna see any more of her for a while.

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    22. Yes, she probably must have suddenly realized she had entered a place not resonating with her kind. So, like the one she was referring to, she immediately felt the icy warm winds of feminine femdom, unleashing an innate urge to hastily leave this welcoming hall leading to the first corridor of the Labyrinth.

      Note: The one she was referring to, left today all swearing and cursing, trying once more to insult me lol. Little does this little man know that women like me can't get insulted by people we label as insignificant and/or mental dwarfs.

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  20. They really are just a like never have seen such speeches his speeches are long and boring and hers are long and boring. The only differences between her and the pres is when he wants a gender war on men and woman he can do it to. By just snapping his fingers and his sheep will follow well just the same as her bloggers.

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    1. Oh Sublime Mouse of the powerful Anony-clan, I beg You,leave the Sacred Sanctuary of Your Divine Pantheon, and show Yourself to us inferior and humble mortals, so we can put You on a gold plated Soapbox, for You to deliver endless Sermons that only You oh Mouse of Mouses are capable of spitting into our hungering for knowledge faces. Hail the Mighty Mouse! Mouse...Mouse...Mouse....Mouse.

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  21. I came to right a wrong,and let you know when I visit,my Ayesha :)
    "Anonymous" sure has a lot say,looking for the last word maybe?

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    1. Yep, remember the good old days when Yahoo360/Pulse was still alive? It never changes. Small minds will always try to have "the last word". Sadly for them, they'll only get it when we allow them to have it. But....um....dammit, maybe that's exactly what these mental wannabe masochists are after. So, no matter what we do, we always will be doomed to act like benevolent social workers/therapists, always on the barricades to defend, foster and further their miserable state of mind, hehehe. Real saints, that's what we are! Damn, someone should tell the Pope!

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  22. Sorry you had one more row here. Or is that good? Maybe Ayesha loves to row?

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    1. If Tina is a lawyer, then this could well be the Devil's advocate.

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    2. Raposo, I didn’t see you. Want a row?

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    3. Love it? Nah, not really. But life conditioned me to never let a scumbag have the scene. Consider it one of my flaws.

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    4. @ Raposo: There is no need for any of them, as I'm already a saint in my own right :)

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    5. Satan, lol, that was a good one! You know, this here wasn't really a row. You should have seen some of the cyber commotion that erupted on yahoo from time to time.

      Ayesha, you will be judged by a jury of your equals on your judgment day :-)

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    6. My judgment day will never come.

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  23. Excuse me Ayesha I just read in this post that someone killed the love of your life.

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    1. Yes. It’s the point. So why doesn't everyone comment on it? They all think that you just made it up - for art’s sake.

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    2. Actually there was one who commented on the contents of this poem. It was lobojack, baptized by Raposo as the patriarchal fathead, the anonymous sewer lover who's cruising the Internet with a zillion other names.
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      Why? I already explained this some time ago.
      - Some come here expecting and hoping for the usual vanilla femdom crap and/or porn pictures, silently leaving again, with their limp dick between their trembling legs, as soon as they realize they were wrong.

      - Some simply can't handle more heavy stuff.

      - Some just absorb my words, let them sink in, ponder about same, understand what I'm saying, and have nothing to add.
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      People who've read most of my previous postings know that my poetry is always based on personal experiences.

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  24. I hope that what you have said will help you to cope with the horrors of that time. Any sane reader will hope that.

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    1. I'm not so sure about that. Too many insane people think they are sane, while too many sane people are actually insane.

      The horrors as you call them, became simply a part of me. Like scars they never go away/heal. And there's no need for that either.

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  25. Alright I suffered scars and can think of them that way. Yes I don’t want to think of them any other way.

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    1. Ah, that's my Satan, a devil who finally saw the light, got burnt by it, and now proudly carries the scars as a witness.

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